Perfection. I could not have asked for anything more awesome.

As many of you guys who follow me in twitter /fb wold know that I was very excited when Jo In SUng was coming to have a small fanmeet for his drama That Winter The Wind Blows.

He came on the 21st evening, luckily my paer on that day was a morning paper so I went to Paradigm Mall with Ms.Lee right fter my paper and hang out there.We queued for like 4 hours (?) to be able to be the first 50 to get free goodies and to get a good place to stand and see him.It was worth it :DDDD

When he came out,it was just so surreal.I didnt expect for him to come to Malaysia to be honest because it's quite rare for korean actors to come to malaysia to promote their dramas and what not.When he came out I just died,he is sooooooo good looking in real life.And he is a really nice person.

When he spoke,I just went crazy lah...I love his voice.Hahahahaa.And he kept making funny and cute expression that you feel he was never bored during the whole event.And he was so nice to the fans who was picked to went up stage to play games with him..There's this couple who went,and before he wanted to hug the girl,he asked the girl's boyfriend whether it was ok to do that. I was like HOW NICE CAN THIS PERSON BE?!!!!!!!!!!! And some fans who wanna take pic with him using their own phones and wanna hug him again before the leave,he just courteously obliged to it.

I was thinking to myself,where in the world would I be able to meet like a real (non-celebrity guy ) like him? It's so so so rare.

Ms.Lee and I went home that night and decided to make a card for him...We planned to go to the airport the next morning to see him as the organizer provided the info on what time his flight to singapore will be..But due to lack of sleep and both of us being a bit lazy as we woke up really early,decided to go to his hotel instead which was just at kl sentral.

And so that's what we did,to try our luck. We went to ask the hotel staffs there and was a bit worried that they wouldnt wanna tell us anything,but they were really very helpful and nice to us...When we went there,we find it funny.There were only 2 of us who was waiting for him.We were shocked as well as we thought they maybe some other fans there too!!

We waited for him for like 2 hours,and one of the hotel staff told us that they cant guarantee that he will come out using the normal way,as usually celebs who staed at their hotel will exit through a private exit but just tell us to wait and try out luck.... and so we did...

We were really really really lucky as he decided to use the normal exit that day!! When he came down,i think at first he didnt notice that we were his fans as there were only 2 of us like standing at the side stunned for 2 seconds there of not believing that he is walking past us now,and ms.lee handed out fan letter to him and he suddenly went 'oh,thank you' and he went out to sit at the like rest area for a moment...We were of course not allowed to go in there,there were the malaysians and his korean staffs there blocking the entrance,...But we went to another side,and we saw him reading our letter ON THE SPOT and nodding his head as he was reading...Not long after that,he saw us standing at the side,and held up his hand,holding the letter saying he has read it and said thank you!!!! AHhhhhh...

Not long after he got up and it was time for him to leave already...We followed behind him to his car,and he kept turning back and said bye bye to us...And when he entered the car,waved several times and finally when the car was about to drive away,he waved again to us...Ms.Lee and I just DIED i tell you,JUST DIED.We could not believe our luck!

Yes.Many of you would wanna ask me,did I then manage to take a pic with him? Sadly we did not...We were just too stunned at the moment and forgot to ask him that.I took a pic of him but not with him...But all in all,I feel very lucky to be able to meet him...And I can bravely say that,at least for that 5 mins or more,he really looked at me and knew who I was,cause there were only 2 of us there.Haahahahaa.

This is an incident that I will never forget for the rest of of my life.Never in my dreams really i would expect him to come,and to be able to meet him so close and having some private/closer interaction with him?!! I could not ask for anything more awesome than this (well a pic with him would be epic) but it;s ok....Hope I get to see him again one day and get to take a pic WITH him then when that time comes....

Feel the need to write this down as this is something that I truly wanna remember...Though its already embedded in my mind and heart,and i am still rewinding that scene over and over again,i wanna put it down in words also.=))))

-till then,with lots of love and day dreaming of jo in sung, peace out-

short update

Hello again there.Ye,I  have noticed that I have gone m.i.a from this blog for like a month now...Well,I have a perfect valid reason here: I am currently battling the war with my final exam.. Have a final paper on the 29th and then I am unofficially done with my law degree!

How did all the paper go so far? I have seriously no idea,i mean for some papers i could answer them and for some,i am not so sure.I think I may have screwed up my IP paper.UOL has this opposite effect where you think you would do well on that paper,it will turn out to be your worse one and vice versa =.= So,am not putting any expectations,just preparing myself for the worst.

Please,may the force be with me to be able to pass all my papers and at least let me get a second lower degree honours.Anything but not a third class.I dont know what I will do if I were to get that.Seriously,I dont know what I will do...

May the force also be with me to let me go through my final paper,Give me strength to be able to finish my revision and be able to do that paper.Gahhhh.I shall see you guys soon! many plans ahead after the exams which I hope will all go well successfully and hopefully some plans will be able to become reality!!

-till then,with lots of love,peace out-

How is one ever prepared to face death?
Never perhaps(?) ,though it is an inevitable fact.
Some never even think of it." I am is still young,death is for the sick,the old."

One never actually really knows until it hits you.

To be prepared to lose someone very dear in your life,
Knowing that you will not in your lifetime ever get to see them,hear their voice,or touch them,
It's something i feel no human being can ever get over it completely.
Even if  its a forseeable thing,something you can see happening imminently.

To face it bravely,requires a lot of courage.
Even if one does it successfully,to remain collected after the entire process,
Its something that no one person can do by themselves.

Be strong my friend.
Time heals and life will go on.It will never be an easy thing to do,but
Memories of all the happy and sad moments embedded in your mind and soul will,I believe help.

This is dedicated to a friend of mine.Take care and stay strong.

-with lots of love-

Thoughts

Hearing,reading and seeing things happening around me lately,
It made me think;
Is there such a thing as 'forever' in relationships?
If there is no forever,can there be a lasting one?

Love.
Its such a beautiful thing.
At the same time,its a scary thing.
It can be a drug,giving you ecstasy.
Or it can be a poison which slowly kills you.
Which one will it be? Could it be both?

From what I have learnt though,
There is always an exception.
 Thankfully,there is.phew.

Why?

Sometimes you think you have a rough idea of how a person is.
You never expect them to change or thought they will.
The words ''People generally don't change ya.It's very hard for people to change at times'' came into my mind.

As I watch someone I know change for the worse right in front of my eyes.
It's just sad.I was shocked,disappointed and disgusted.
How could a person change to being someone who is so cruel?
Yes,you just need to just breathe,to just stop time for one moment and relax.

All I see was you are just escaping.
It maybe a hard thing to accept,the reality.
But everything happens for a reason.
Have you ever thought of what your consequences might lead to?

I can't understand why did you do it.
We were never close due to our age gap.
I maybe deemed as 'still a kid' and dont understand stuff.

Well,I may not know how complicated things were.
But to see you hurt the people who loves you the most.
To see them go through the pain.
It's just sad.
I wished you could see what you have put them through.

Maybe that time will come one day for you to realize.
I am afraid when that time comes,it will be too late.
For it is not easy for one to forgive another.
If forgiveness was ever or eventually given,
One does not forget easily.

It's just sad.

Strangers

Ahhh, I met you again after about a year or so.
Thoughts of the past replayed in my mind.
It's sad,that we can't at least be courteous with each other and just smile at each other or say a simple 'hi' as a form of acknowledgement.
There will come a day where we will just be strangers to each other.
Not that we already are in that situation now.

One thing is for sure.
I checked with my heart about my feelings this time around,
I feel nothing.

Madness..

*please be warned that this is an account on what happened during GDA and there may be moments of craziness and over-enthusiasm from the writer whom at the spur of the moment may not be in her right mind.And in no way does she intend to show off how lucky she was or anywhere along the line.This maybe a long/kinda detailed account of what happened,and do feel free to skip it if its too much.* Jutaan terima kasih


It's a first time for me to attend a 2 day event concert thing.And what more,a kpop one! Was in dilemma of attending it initially but I wouldn't forgive myself if I didnt go because I get to see all the artist that I've been dreaming of seeing one shot in 2 days!!! I think it was a first time for me to have run for my life to book a good place for queuing.There are 2 entrance for this event and after passing through the 1st entrance the 2d entrance is like 300m further in.So,everyone just run for their life to be first in line again.Joey's friend ran for day 1.And i ran alone for day 2,booking places for like 6 people.OH,the stress.It's been a long time since my school sports day that I run like this.It was like a running competition.Heck,i think i only joined running competition throughout my highschool days  once which when I was 15/16 i think =.=

Day 1 of GDA has more boybands and it was okok for me because all the artist that I have more liking for were performing on day 2. The performers for day 1 was Exo,Suju,Shinee, CN Blue,4 minute,Beast,Infinite,B1A4,BToB,Kara and FT Island,Forgive me if I have missed out any.And it was awesome! just pure awesome.Took the free shuttle bus to Sepang (of all places,they picked this place =.= ) and reach there a bit late,but it was a new experience,figuring out ways to get there and going there alone.Met a friend while taking the bus and we kinda parted ways when we reach the venue cause she and I bought diff zone tics..but we bump into each other again at the end of the concert while waiting for our friends.And i then later found out that we actually share the SAME BIRTHDAY!!! Such coincidence right?
My partner in crime for concerts (esp kpop ones) ,Joey, who is one of the luckiest person I ever know,won the VVIP and backstage passes to this event and hence,during day 1 she was not with me.I more or less stand alone for this concert,which is kinda new to me,and got to know another nice lady...who turns out to be working in samsung and hence we started talking and stuff.She is very much older than me and getting to hear her working experience and all was really interesting. The highlight of day 1 for me was seeing mainly all of the boy bands.

But after the end of day 1,which was tiring,(one of the after effects of concerts) i knew that day 2 was gonna be EPIC.Why? because it has Ailee,Lee Hi,f(x),Miss A ,Sistar,B.A.P, Teen Top,K.will,huh gak ,Epik high and the one and only,the one person that I dengan tidak malunya claim is my husband Mr.Kwon Ji Yong,aka G DRAGON!!!!!!! I couldnt believe that I get to meet him so soon already after the Alive Tour.Gahhhhh.The security and all was more strict on Day 2,because day 1 was like chaos when they open up the gates.People were literally running for their life to get a good place (as it was all free standing) and some lost their shoe,got step on after falling down and some just crashed into near by rubbish bin (the big type) which really freaked me out.As on day 1 ,i was alone and saw that there's still so much space left in the zone i am standing and was ok with not standing first row,I just coolly walked in.

On day 2,Joey manage to book first row places for me.(am really really really really very thankful).Got filmed my some camera men and appeared on the screen a couple of times.This is really an amusing thing for me.Hahaha.Cause some times,we were screaming out lungs out and was not aware of it.HAHAHAHAHA.You can really see the division of fan clubs through this event.ost people were only there tot he the 1 fav group of theirs.For. e.g.: exo. And will scream their heart and lungs out only when they come out.Me being more neutral,screamed for majority of them.But then,saved my energy for the ones i really really love.Hahhahaa.Like,when Huh gak was singing,all of us were like keeping our energy towards the end,cause we knew that G.D would be the last one coming out.But the last 3-4 acts were my fav one of all.I.e the one I looked most forward to in this event,and I just went crazy for them.It started off with Teen Top ( i kinda like their songs a lot) and I think I was the only one screaming like a mad woman in my area,because the people in my area there were all Big bang fans.But i didnt care.And I first apologize for my in coming craziness.HAHAHAHAA.Then it was Epik High . Never in my dreams would I expect them to come to Malaysia,cause to be honest,their fan base here is not as big compared to other idol groups out there.AND AND AND,they performed 'Get Out' which is one of my fav track int he album and I just went crazy.I tell you CRAZY. I just put my camera into my bag and said screw it.not gonna take pics and just gonna enjoy the atmosphere. And lo behold,no words need more emphasis and I guess you guys can guess that when G.D came out,lagi lah I went crazy.To hear him sing Crayon,One of a kind,Light it up (with tablo!! one of my fav tack off the album also) and Heartbreaker  is just SUPER SURREAL. And i actually get to see him so much more closer compared to Alive tour although I had first row standing places also for alive tour.

This event was tiring as hell,went to stay at a hotel (didnt went back to seremban) with joey and her friends.Got to meet her friend from singapore and her friend's friends from China (who is studying in s'pore also).And they are such hardcore fans that i really salute their dedication! Ooh and one of the China girl got G.D"S TOWEL!!!!! Gahhhh,get to see it when we went back to the hotel. *faints* OOH,and I GOT TO TOUCH DJ TUKUTZ FROM EPIK HIGH!!!!!! Towards the end of day 2,all the artists gathered at the front (extended stage) and he came down and was just in front of me.And seeing fans trying to touch him and all,he further leaned  forward to let them touch him.HAHAHAHA.it was a funny and crazy moment.HAHAHAHAAA. And on Day 1,Shinee's Key waved at me.Nope.Am not perasan cause I was the only one in my area who was waving like crazy towards him.HAHAHHAAHAAAA.Ohhh,and I got to see G.D's rehearsal before the show started on Day 2.had to squat down and see through a fence,but its worth it.And all i can say is that he is really a perfectionist and likes to act cool. =((( Let's just say i could not be any more starstruck that night .hehehee

This is truly something I will treasure for life.And the after effects of this event is kinda great.It's like I am suddenly adapting myself to this 2 day kinda thing,where after the first day,you go back to hotel,shower and then fan girl with your friends and all and then just sleep.Then you wake up the next day to queue for your line and go all crazy again.Then BOOM.you are back to reality.back to the stressful college life and all.Booooooooo.

oh and on another sad note,this is my last event in malaysia with joey.My partner in crime to fan girl over big bang concerts as she will be going to seoul to further her studies.Shall def visit her one day and the main mission for both of us is to visit Vita Dolce.=)))))

The stage -Day 1

Day 1-Moi posing before the event starts

Dj Tukutz of epik High!!!!!

G.D's towel !

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HOTNESSS

End of Day 2.posing with friend's pass.hehehee

More pics can be found on fb =)

till now,with lots of love,and madness,peace out-