Thursday, August 25, 2011

One that will be deeply missed.

I posted this late again.I remembered that I was supposed to make a post around the 23rd or so,but I forgot.Just remembered it suddenly today.I make it a point to remember it every year.

It has been 3 years since the death of Park Sang-min or better known as Lee Eon.He was a cast in the drama Coffee Prince.I personally think that it's the all time best korean drama and love this drama a lot.When I heard the news that he had passed away.I was very shocked because,at that time, just a few days back,I was happily watching him acting,and am anticipating more dramas from him in in the future.It's such a waste and saddening thing that he had to pass away at such an early age.

   It has been 3 years now.You're surely deeply missed.May you rest in peace.

-with lots of love,peace out-

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Leggo =)

Hello.Hello.I'm on cloud 9 now..As many would have know, I have been a human with a mixture of nervousness and stress for the past 48,August the 18th is the day where i get my result.Was contemplating at first to go to college to take it or to check online.Finally decided to check it online and thankfully I did.Would like to start of by thanking everyone who was wishing me luck and reassuring me and all.Appreciate it a LOT.You know i love you guys lots.=DDDDDDDD

The reason to it is because,on the night before Result Day,I slept at 4am,just to make myself so tired that I dont have to think of anything.Woke up around 9.45 am and headed straight for the laptop which is just beside me.Nothing in my email.Waited.waited.waited.Checked fb and twitter and email a million zillion times.Nothing.Then I got to know that THE RESULTS WILL ONLY BE OUT AT 7PM!!!!! First thing I did when I knew is to literally cry out loud.(no one was at home,so,there was no fear of people thinking that I am crazy). And you can perhaps see me vent my anger/stress/frustration/craziness in various social communication websites.

And so,with 6 hours to kill,I watch dramas,check on fb and twitter countless times for some unexplainable reason.Waited till I was feeling about 6,went to exercise downstairs and all,then the feeling where my hati go berdebar-debar came back.At 7pm.Still nothing.Then,See Wei came and ask me to go fb..While freaking out and screaming a bit,saw the link to check my result.And bam.was praying/muttering/freaking out all at the same time when i was keying in my candidate number and all.

And right before my eyes,I saw it,the first thing was to check to see,if the result was really mine,then I saw the subject code,to which i totally have no memory for what code stands for what sub,but then i saw 4 repetitive words: PASS~PASS~PASS~PASS. And i screamed.And a huge load of burden was just off me.And raced downstairs to tell my parents,then race back upstairs to tell my friends and basically the whole world.Hahaahhaaha.They actually didnt put any grades to it.Just marks.Got 53 for Criminal,51 for Public,48 for CLR (memang memalukan) and 61 for Contract( did not expect this)

  To be honest,I'm not satisfied with the marks I got.Cos,I know that I can do better.But,thinking back on how i study last year,i'm happy with my results.And I'm so gonna kick ass next year.( I know I say this every year after getting my exam result) but I don't care.I need to and I want to.People,if you feel that I'm slacking off,please just go stress me up to the max ya.thank you.

p/s:my apologies if you feel I over exaggerate/am like a drama queen on how i was acting/going true for the past 48hrs.I guess i just it.=p

p.p/s:do you guys know what does leggo mean? it's not the toys leggo,it has another meaning to it.For those who knows the meaning without googling it at first instance,then salute.cos i didnt know this meaning at first until i google it.Leggo is a urban/hip hop slang for let's go.

Result day aside,finished watching City Hunter,love the drama,dislike the ending(it's a bit cacated).And I finished Baby-faced Beauty and also Lie to Me and also Secret Garden(cried watching this.been a long time since I do so.) Ooh,and today is the birthday of the one and only Mr.Kwon Jiyong.-satu celebriti yang saya sangat teramat suka.hahahahaha.=DD

Overall,today is a good happy day with a little bit of sad&surprising news.Shall end this post with  pics of Mr.Kwon =D enjoy:

-with lots of love,peace out-

Thursday, August 11, 2011

a moment to let it blast it all out.

You know what,sometimes,I just feel live is so tiring.Yes,go ahead and think what is life so tiring for a girl who just sits at home onlining the whole day,rotting in it,doing nothing.Her life is just so drama free.Nothing to worry about and all.Well,yes.that is true.But,it just feels tiring because there's always expectations and responsibilities thrown at me.Not that I am avoiding it,I just need to feel appreciated a bitlah at least.

When i have done my part,you dont say a word,you don't even notice it at times.And when I dont you complain to the max.Making it seem that I dont do ANYTHING AT ALL.NOT A SINGLE BIT.ZERO.But then,have you ever stop and think that the tiny little petty things that i do.Have you considered it? Does any of it cross you mind?

I dont like to tell you the stuff that I'm going through,my worries,my problems.I prefer to keep it to myself and if can to solve it myself.You know why? I dont like it when you worry about things.One its because you have other stuff to worry about.and when you worry about things,you over think.You become paranoid.And i hate,what do I do,I make myself look like i dont have anything that worry me.not in my studies,not in anything.I hate troubling you.look at stuff unfolding before my eyes,I tell myself I dont want to trouble you.I make myself be strong and not to be reliable on others at times.And when you treat me nicely,I dont know how to give it back at times.Guess,i'm more comfortable concealing my feelings.preferring to let it out in this blog.I find a way to release and solve things myself.I find a way to show that i'm happy,a simple minded girl.I find a way to just be lazy and all.I find a way to act as if i dont care and dont know about some stuff.

In some aspects,I can be independent.But,i know i'm not independent and strong enough.There's a lot of things that I need to experience and learn about.I'm still immature enough in some things.and i dont put myself in others shoes to see what they are going through now.

But its just that like i said before.Can't you just stop taking me for granted at times,and just for sometime let me have my space.I guess you didnt realise that I'm the type who prefer to do things silently.Guess that's why you didnt notice the stuff that i do at times,do you?I have some reasons on why I do these things.I'm not just doing it blindly at times.
But i know at the end of the day,you still see me as some immature girl who's just a kid.Being spoilt and selfish.Not understanding what others are feeling,Not taking into account what they have done and sacrifice for you..and that I should have show gratitude for it from it by helping the,.doing things without being other words just grow up.

I'm just tired ok.tired.give me a have your problems,i do have a way of doing things,i do have your expectations,i try to live up to it.even if you dont show it,i know you because i've seen and felt it with my own eyes.And when i dont live up to it,even if you're trying not to show it,i can still feel it.and i feel like crap when i fail to do so.When you have come to terms of accepting it,even if i dont show it,i feel like crap not fullfilling it.

Yes.I'm that selfish,that self obessed and that ungrateful of an ass

Friday, August 5, 2011

Ramblings about daily routine?

It's August now.Gosh,time surely flies at the speed of light =( August,1 more month till I say goodbye to my 2 besties.Gahhhhh,I dont wanna see them go.If they are going to another state which is still in Malaysia,at least we're still at the same country.But this,they're going to UK.Hate farewells.There ain't nothing nice about it at all.But,I can be selfish and just want them here right? Hmm,maybe they don't even want we to want them.hahahaa.joking.joking.

Ahh,August,come the 18th,it'll be the day where I'll be getting my results.Don't know what to expect nor feel.Best to be neutral.Oh,no,I need to expect that I'll pass and not fail.It will be such a MAJOR embarassement if I do so.*fingers crossed* Ooh oh,that day is also the birthday of the one and only,Kwon Ji Young(G.Dragon) which I also dengan tidak malunya dan bermuka-tebalnya take him as my husband.Muahahahahahahaa.Just found out that he shaved his head bald today.Shocking but still HOT! Yes,I'm that biased.

Life's peaceful lately.To put it in another word,boring (?) Doing housework,watching dramas/movies,hearing/discovering new songs,going crazy with over hot guys and stuff,checking my mails/fb/twitter countless times,reading blogs,story books,eating,sleeping,and going to jogging is practically my day to day routine.And I actually don't jog.I dont have the stamina to do so,I walk like 10 laps a day around a lake garden near my house,while doing so,watching in wonder people trying to fish at the lake,as I'm not that convinced that there are any fishes worthy to be caught and also marveling at old uncle and auntie(like really old) being able to jog while,me,being young,don't have the stamina to do so.It is a bit embarassing,but,oh well,let's just leave it there.

Can't say that I find it totally boring.I actually enjoy it.(i know,i'm such a boring person,etc,etc,etc) But,as I know that I wont be having much time doing all these when college starts and all,I''m treasuring these moments.Weekends are the days that I look forward too because that means that I get to meet up with my friends or just being able to hang out with my sis and stuff.
*Warning:paragraph below is about the songs(mainly k-pop) and drama i'm obsessing.Please skip it by all means if you're not interested.*

Am currently loving songs from:2ne1-Hate You,After School Red-In the night,Teen Top-Dont spray perfume(the lyrics are funny,but an addictive song) & First Kiss,Super Junior-Superman (its hotness,not officially released yet i think) and also Mr.Simple,but the slow version that they release for their teaser.I suspect that that maybe in their repackage album or something.Also loving their songs called My love,my kiss,my heart.Lil Jon ft 30h3 is nice too.And also Kim Bo Kyung-Suddenly.Omg.I am totally addicted to it.It's just so nice.All thanks to City Hunter.Am so loving this drama. :D Snow Patrol's and Adele's songs is love.Miss A and 2pm's album,and also songs from John Debney for the movie No Strings Attached is awesome too.Ok.I think I discovered too many songs in a short amount of time.hahahaha.

I'm waiting for several movies to be out.Friends with Benefits looks nice.And also The Smurf :DDDD I want to watch this movie called Stupid Crazy Love too.but am not sure whether they are even showing it in Malaysia.Hopefully they dolah.I watched the trailer (in youtube,go search it if you're curious) and I died of laughter.It's just so funny.

Emmm,I guess that's it for now.
-with lots of love,peace out-