Sunday, April 27, 2014

how far would you go for love?

To love someone and be with them until it comes to a point where it seems that you are the only one who is working to further build and maintain the relationship while it seems that the significant other always promise to do better and keeps apologizing. Is it really worth holding on to? Is that or is there still love?

Is it still love when it seems that you cry more than you smile at times?

It makes me wonder how far would one go for love?
I've never been in love. Observing and hearing stories about how my friend's deal with their relationships,in giving my opinion at times,I wonder,why would you go through all the pain and misery when it looks and feel that you could do with someone which is so much better? or that it would better to be single and alone rather than putting yourself in such emotionally and physically exhaustive times.

And so they say,love is blind,and we accept the love that we think we deserve.
We are so blinded by it at times,that it numbs a bit of our logical and rationally judgement.
At the same contradictory time,it makes us happy,it gives us hope,it may even make us stronger at times.
It helps us grow and (hopefully ) help us become wiser as well.

So I wonder,how far will you go for love and try to maintain it after going through all the happiness and sadness?
What is it from it are you hoping to get at the end of the day?
This may be an unanswerable question at times

But I do know for a fact that human beings are not robots,we get exhausted.
When it reaches to our very maximum limit,
The brain and heart will tell you,enough.
That's about all the shit I can deal and take.
I need to cut you out of my life for the happiness of you and me.

-with lots of love (?) hahaha,peace out-

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

It's exam season for the upcoming months.Yes,you heard me right, months! and I am already preparing for exam.Well,to be honest,there actually isn't much time.The amount of workload that I have is crazyyyy.The subject matter isnt really hard,after changing my mindset from SPM for UOL style of exam,I have to change it again for CLP.The exams are literally a race against time and memory *sighhhhh*

Exams will be early-mid July.What am I gonna do after that? PARTAYYYYY. Hahahaha. Just kidding. I am totally not a party person in the sense of going to clubs or drinking alcohol. Never even got drunk before.Hahahahaa.

Am aimming and planning to go on vacations and have fun traveling and stuff :D Hopefully I will be able to do that. Am trying my hardest to study my ass off cause I want and foresee to have a tiny bit of R&R in May.SO, need to bersusah susah dahulu,and bersenang sedikit kemudian . Hahahahaha.

Just a slight update before I head to Dreamland as I am now feeling so hyper at 2am and I have no idea why. *sigh* that is why I am soooo not a morning person. I need to rewind back my sleeping clock though.Have been sleeping about 3-4 something lately,and hence today,i guess i am sleeping a bit early.

So so so addicted to songs from the Neighbourhood.Specifically : Lurk, Afraid (4e remix) , Silver and Honest.It's been on repeat the WHOLE day today. And for one last time,am gonna listen to it before i head to bed.

-with lots of love,peace out-

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

23 but I insist that I'm only 21

hello hello,Once again I am about a month late in posting up updates. Looks like my resolution to blog more seem not to be working out so far.I have myself to blame for my love of procrastination. I have one or two draft posts which needs some touch ups here and there before I post them.

Well,I love the month of April solely because I was born on this month.Had a night class this year on my birthday so all birthday celebrations were celebrated either before or after the actual day.How did the celebrations go this year? A summary of it would be : food! the main theme for this year! hahaha.

Celebrated my born day a day earlier with my long time best friends : Ms Lee and Ms.Sweet.Had brunch with Ms.Lee at this baba&nyonya restaurant (called Lima Blas-which means 15 pronounced the baba and nyonya way) at jalan mesui (which has an awesome coffee shop called Feeka beside it! )  We ordered a set lunch where the main dish was tamarind chicken and after tasting it,i decided to order Pong Teh as I was curious as to how good it would taste. It was not up to my expectations and I was giving my opinion on it without realizing that the owner of the shop was kinda sitting behind opposite of me-seperated by a cupboard or something.

The unexpected moment that happen after eating was Ms.lee went around the shop to take some pictures and she saw this ice gems biscuits(?) i am not sure what exactly the biscuits were called,but it was these small biscuits with coloured sugar on top which i am sure all of you has eaten them during your childhood. (if you have not,then WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN MY FRIEND?!!!) . She wanted to buy some for me but the owner then just decided to give to her for free cause he said it's such an inexpensive food.And Ms.Lee then shocked me with it.I thought that she bought it in seremban and brought it up to KL to give'em to me..So I was super shocked to hear her story of how she got them later on.

Also,for some unknown reasons,when we were paying the bill,the owner decided to not charge us for the pong teh.Dont know if he heard my criticisms or what..We were dumbfounded that we kinda didn't ask the real reason as to why it was on the house.

Met Ms.Sweet for dinner and she came with 2 things that I never thought she and ms.lee had it all plan out. They decided to buy me : ROSES BY THEIR STALKS AND A BOTTLE OF ROSE WINE!! i laughed like crazy and was so shocked when I saw Ms.Sweet walking in with it.To be honest,I thought she had received the roses from her colleague at work and was about to say: Woahhh! you received flowers from work?!!!! When she said, 'Nah,this is for you'. HAHAHAHAAHA. I will never forget that moment.The epicness of it was beyond words.We had dinner and proceeded to have some coffee and cake at the Library Coffee and had some funny/interesting chilling session.These 2 friends of mine will never fail to amaze and amuse me.

Got a called from my aunt who's in UK on my birthday which i totally didnt see it coming.Oh, and my bro SENT ME A YOUTUBE VIDEO WITH CLIPS OF KOREAN STARS WISHING SINGING /DEDICATING BIRTHDAY WISHES ( it must have taken him sometime to find the vid) which was hilarious.No one asked me out to hang out on my birthay this year and so before class,i went to celebrate by myself with a little bit of starbucks and a salad wrap . Came home from class and my parents went to bed( as it was late).. and so i decided to make a birthday cake for myself with the ice gems biscuits as there were about 20 mins before 2nd April ends at 12am.

Had lunch with Ms.Leong at klcc to which she belanja me and we lepak and chatted for bit and it feels like such a long time since we've done these kinda stuff together =(( and had Johnny Rockets burger ( which IS SOOOO GOOOD) with my sis on Friday... The celebration continues on Saturday where I had lunch with Pei Nee,Siew Lee,and my birthday twins -Ah Chang & Hui Peng.Had korean food and Pei Nee and Siew Lee urprised the 3 of us with a lighted birthday cake! All 3 of us totally didn't see that coming.And I got birthday gifts from Ah Chang and Hui Peng-they used their books vouchers to buy me a book respectively.I was so touched and felt bad cause i didn't get them anything at all >.<

On sunday, yik yee belanja me lunch and for once we get to hang out and talk more other the the walls in my college building.It's not always we hang out after class cause we're usually either tired and rushing to go home or class just ended too late to have time to chill.Besides that,she's it's hard to meet on a day where we dont have class.

Ooh, and way earlier before it was actually my birthday,my parents got my necklace which i received for my 21st birthday clasp fixed and bought a new pendant for me-which i seriously did not expect at all.It was a cluster of stars.And I LOVE IT!!

All in all,this year's birthday celebration was very memorable.I get to celebrate it with all the person that matters to me in my life and albeit it being all at different timing,each of them took the time and effort to celebrate it for me and with me.Also I received a lot of birthday wishes as well.Some which I didn't expect to receive because I thought they forgot or don't really care.

Words really couldnt not express how happy, thankful I am in having such family and friends in my life.

-with lots and lots of love,thank you-