That awkward moment

-Awkward is defined as:Difficult to effect; uncomfortable; Marked by or causing embarrassment or discomfort.- There's this one awkward moment that's recorded in my mind like using a video camera. At times it will be replayed on my  mind like a broken recoding tape.

I commute by train to my college on a daily basis.In the beginning the journey was a combination of nervousness and fascination.One because I was always worried that I couldn’t make it on time to my classes due to a wrong estimation of time.Another was I get to see some nice view when I travel.

After about 6 months,I considered myself to be a ‘’seasoned traveler’’ or shall I say a ‘’regular consumer’’ of taking the train. I realised that by taking the train,one need to have entertainment and food. My ipod is my saviour of life in train(if you’re the type can’t really much live without music) or a book or a game device or the BEST thing that one could ask, another person with them to talk to).Also,some water or tid bits with them as delays of the train and what not at peak hours can make you faint either due to not having enough water or food.

The then earnest me during the first few times of taking the train slowly turned into a person who treated the train as if it’s my home( it’s a 1 hour and 20 minutes ride usually).As I can’t stand  not doing anything in the train, I usually have a book and my ipod with me.Or I’ll just sleep. Some awkward or embarrassing encounters either made my day or made me want to crawl inside a hole and hide in it.

One of the most awkward moment that happened got me smiling till today. There was one day when I was staring into space when the train stopped at one of the stations, and a really cute guy got in and was standing right in front of me. The first awkward moment happened where our eyes meet accidentally and looking at him in the eyes for like 3 seconds or so felt like 5 minutes and we broke eye contact immediately afterwards. It happened again when both of us were ‘’caught’’ looking at each other again. Although it was an awkward moment, I was secretly happy as I was having a rough day on that day.I guessed as Lady Luck was on my side that day, the cute guy soon got a seat right next to me!!  

By that time, I was feeling tired and sleepy, and my station being the last station in that train ride,I was soon was fast asleep in the train. Little did I know the cute guy beside me was sleeping too. I thought he had got out at another station. When I woke up from my short sleep drowsily, I saw this old man smiling amusingly at me. For a second, I was puzzled. I thought to myself, did I sleep with my mouth open or did I do something embarrassing while I was sleeping ?? I wanted to crawl into a hole and hide if I did.

Then, I realised that somehow, my shoulder felt heavy. It was only then that I realised that the cute guy was still seating beside me ,sleeping with his head on my shoulders! I was embarrassed, shocked and happy all at the same time. I was screaming ‘’OHHHHH MYYYYYYYYYYY GODDDDDDDD” internally. I did not know what to do and just let him sleep with his head on my shoulder.The old man sitting opposite of me had seem to be amused by my confused or mixed expression on my face.

Not long after, he woke up and realised that he was sleeping on my shoulder and immediately sat really straight afterwards in an awkward pose.

 To make things worse, the old man sitting opposite of us, told us that we were such a cute couple. I think both of us turned tomato red. That moment was so awkward that both of us were just speechless as to deny that statement made. Thankfully we reached the last station and he apologised for unconsciously sleeping on my shoulder. I told him it was ok and said I myself did not realised that he was doing so as I too was sleeping. I think both of us imagined that scene in our minds that both of us started laughing.

We said goodbye to each other and went on our separate ways.It sadly did not have a fairy tale ending where we ended up exchanging numbers or bumping into each other again.Although,(I think) this may not be the most creative story out there,it is for me, one awkward moment  that I would definitely remember for a very long time in my life.


The story above is a story I wrote to enter a contest like 1 year or 2 years ago.At the last moment,I decided it was a bit too lame and all,and decided to not submit it..It's based on something that really happened,though some parts were of course exaggerated and of course the last paragraph is completely not true.It's just an extension of my dream of how I thought it will be- like something that only happens in the movies you know? Hahaha. Ayways,this is the second story that I have attempted to write in my whole life,so... I wanna put it down somewhere and in a way let it be 'published' for someone to read?

So,thank you if you have taken the time to read this. It  means something to me.My apologies if you think its one of the worst or most boring or most predictable or most lame story that you have ever read in your life.

- with lots of love,peace out-

In remembrance: Lee Eon

I am always a bit late to post this up.But that doest mean I dont remember you..It was just that day that I re-watched coffee prince.. It's the 5th anniversary...rest in peace,Lee Eon

-with lots of love,peace out-

Booooooooooooooooo

The best friend is now in the plane- highly likely in a deep sleep on the way to Korea for the next 4 months or so. She's there for an exchange programme. Cannot believe that the moment is finally here !

Am so happy for her. Ahhh,the things that she will be experiencing! am excited for her. I love that country a lot,so i hope she will get to experience it awesomely like the way i did.. At the same time, i envy her .Hahaahahaa. Oh the concerts and stuffs that she will get to go,buy and what not, booooooooooo.

But it's all good.Wishing her the very best there,and am looking forward to hear stories :D You will be fine there ! And as I have stated, am just a text/tweet/skype call away from the virtual world.

Take care there.Hope to meet you there maybe? I dont know...Maybe not.We'll see.Not having any hopes at all .

p/s:  Am looking for a best friend replacement or a boyfriend now.anyone? heeee ;D

-with lots of love and am gonna miss you soooooooo much,peace out-

A perfect distraction, a first vacation together

Due to my love for procrastination and August being a kinda busy crazy month,am being a bit behind in my updates..This post is about my (first) vacation with my best friends since after high school if I am not mistaken.All 3 of us are studying different courses and colleges and hence it's a bit hard at times to find a time where all of us are free.But finally we manage to find one. =D

It was not a long -time-ago planned trip.In fact,it was a surprise/random decision.I nearly did not join me homies and I really wanted to go and thankfully my parents didn't really object but just asked me to make a decision and lo and behold,I decided to go... Am prepared to not be employed with KFC but a middle ground was reached and that I dont care that  the solution was that I will getting less pay than expected.

I would say this is the first time I have been on a free and easy trip not having to plan anything.A BIG thank you to Ms.Sweet's friend,Nat would brought us around and all.It is definitely a super plus point visiting a country where English is not their main language and having a local friend there to bring you around..

Oh,I think I have not state in this post yet so far where did I go.Hahahahaa.I went to Bangkok.Never been there before, heard it's a shopping haven and of course nothing beats the Thai food there as that's where it originated from. Truth to both statements made : ITS TRUE!! it's da bomb people!!

I love clothes and all,but I am not the kind of person who goes out shopping one day and can come back to 1 big bag of clothes and all.I am usually a very indecisive and ( sometimes) a kedekut shopper. I dont really buy a lot of stuff one time and would usually think for a kinda long time before I really purchase something--unless it's something I have really been searching/wanting for years--- like the adidas relace low women shoes-- found them at Stadium,KLCC with a 50% discount sale the other day! I literally gasped ! I was just doing some random window shopping while waiting for Ms.Lee who went to meet her coordinator at college. Was just looking around before settling myself at Kinokuniya to read some book.. Ahh! I have seriously been liking this shoes for years (yeah,for real) but ended up didnt buying them when I first found it in Malaysia as it was too expensive.

Short derivation aside,I had a REALLY GOOD TIME AT BANGKOK! Stayed at Pratunam area and that area itself is enough for shopping!! A sad thing is that,some t-shirts there are a bit small for me (although some are really pretty) due to the size differences between malaysian and thai people there..especially the girls...Girls there are small sized,while I am a giant compared to them =.=

I love this place called Asiatique...It was a random decision I think to go there...Took a boat there...And we did not have to pay for it! The reason: They are sending you to a place to spend money--so its a free ride.Hahahahaa. I love this reasoning. The place has a huge ferris wheel that while looking at it in a boat on the way to Asiatique-it reminds me of a scene from Honey and Clover... I dont know why,but it just did...And I think this may sound weird,but the clouds there are pretty.Hahahaha. And the weather there is oh so hot thats it crazy!

And i love the fruit juices there! it's so yummy and cooling! Was introduced to banana smothie by Ms.Lee and it tastes AWESOME!! that i am now a bit addicted to it!! Gotta find if there are good ones in KL and of course I shall try and make some myself too :D

Our craving for fried chicken was seriously deepened by Ms.Lee too and thankfully that craving was satisfied before we head home...Shall definitely visit Bangkok again in the near future for shopping and eating purposes ! It's a nice and kinda cheap place to go vacation with friends =)))

 Pictures of how awesome the trip was and gushes about it can be seen in my social network sites if you did not notice. =))

Oh ya! and I forgot about this! When I was at Asiatique,we witnessed a proposal and there was this girl-acting like a moving statute who was giving out roses by  the stalk itself and I happily went to take one and i came back all happy towards my friends,and the proposal kinda continued and all but it turns out in the end,I need to give back the rose to the bride to be for like a sign of wishing them happiness.I was a bit disappointed for a moment,but i did at last give her back...Wanted to wish the bride to be congratulations,but her friend suddenly came up to her and she burst into more tears,so i just quickly gave it to her and ciao..OH, and did i say roses/flowers in bangkok is like super cheap?!! We saw a bouquet of fresh roses there for like only rm5 !!! Hahahaha.As I think I have not shared this story in my blog before...Let me tell you about this story

One day,I went out shopping with Ms.Lee at klcc/pavilion area.As we were making our way to the lrt station at klcc,beside auntie anne's there is the cold storage entrance,I suddenly saw this girl emerging with a bouquet of roses with all the stalks and a bit of leaves still on them. and she was looking so so so SMITTEN and happy with her boyfriend following her from behind..Everyone kinda like stop a bit and look at them,including me! And after that,according to Ms.Lee-- I could not stop talking about that scene I saw..
I was telling her, ''I dont care,at least once in my lifetime,I must receive a bouquet of flowers like her! It's just so sweet and all..'' And to which after hearing this,I think both the best friend, went and said-- jo ann,you should not fall for this kinda tricks you know.. Haahahaahahaa... But the bouquet of roses was just so beautiful people! I am not really a big enthusiast of flowers...But,you know,it was just like a bouquet like that--it doesnt have those like normally sold at the flower shop wrapped with those plastic papers...Its just so so so much more nicer! And oh course,my very awesome best friends did offer to get me one,since I cannot believe my eyes as to how cheap it is,but i thought to myself,it's not nice wasting their money just giving me one like this for no apparent reason,so.. tak apa :D though I do APPRECIATE their kind thought of doing so! I think I have recently discovered and concluded that I am such a sucker for romantic stuffs/events that I know its not good.And stuff like this at times just happens in movies,or guys use this kinda tricks just to get the girl..BUT..I cant help it at times... booooooooooooooo....I know it's bad..akibat watching too much romantic events on korean shows and stuff you know..*sigh* i shall try and convince myself to not fall easily for these kinda things anymore.

p/s: a big thank you to ms.sweet's parents ,ms.sweet herself,ms.lee and nat for making it awesome and such a memorable trip for me and also my parents for sponsoring me  =))

oh and did I say the trip was 2 days before my results for my final year exam was out ? !! It was definitely a perfect distraction to make me not think too much though during my trip-- I started to get well wishes and what not from my friends and college. =.=

-with lots of  love,peace out-

Fried chicken anyone?

I was kinda determined to find work during my holidays this year,but after being a lazy for a month after my exams and having certain problems with transport and some not so good luck,i landed a job for 2 weeks at KFC which was not far from my house.

Yeah,it maybe a bit weird to some or a shock to some maybe? but i wanted to earn some money and the pay for this 2 weeks job is good.It was during the raya week,and since all the workers at KFC are malay,i guess they needed some contract workers..

My job is working outside--as in the front of the shop which includes,cleaning after tables after people have finished eating and like sweeping and mopping floors and stuff.Its a simple job,unless you dont do housework at home.Its  just on a bigger scale and what is needed is pure labour contribution from one.

However,I technically just worked there for 8 days as I took 4 days off work (2 days were my leave and 2 days MC) as I decided after much contemplation to join my besities to go to Bangkok! It's our first trip together since finishing high school as we,finally are all on holiday break and finally have the time..I almost didnt go to this trip as I was scheduled to work at KFC but then deep down,my heart was telling me that I would regret big time if I didnt go.Thankfully, my parents didn't have much objection to this as well.

Working at KFC is a good experience for me and in a way I could cross it out of my invisible checklist of having worked at a fast food restaurant in my life.Hahahaha. The workers there are all nice people though I feel very old there,excluding my managers and stuff.I was one of the oldest workers there... I got the chance to try interacting with kids who are younger than me for like 3-5 years?  I was certainly a bit worried at first about a potential amount of generation gap.Also,some of the colleagues there are a bit surprised as to why I am working there,--i remember one colleague-Hakim whom I think just blurted out after finding out what I was studying and stuff and said to me without filtering his thoughts I guess: 'Why are you working here?!' I was amused hearing him question me that,and just answered : Hmmm,I need some money( and inside,i was thinking--working for such a short period money with a pay they are offering me sounds good,and I dont mind the hard work.)

However,after talking to them and getting to know them further, I realized that they were actually very mature for their age.. Their take on life,the things they have been through and their dreams and aspirations and how they see things are different from me and the people I usually hang out with. I am amazed and in awe as to how simple they lead their life at times..Waking up,going to work-which has minimal politics,helping their colleagues and treating them all like one big family and then go home.Earning as much money is mostly their main aim,but that doesnt mean that they hate their job...They seem to enjoy doing their job and take them seriously as well..This is what make me feel amazed.Here,I am myself dreading about my future job and how tough and all its going to be that I think theoratically for now,I  partly loathe my to be job.But these people are different.

Also,it made me realized and putting it in a crude manner,the pay there is actually not super high,but yet the people there are so enthusiastic and willing to do this kind of work(its seriously hard labour).It also made me realize through some observation,some people who frequented the place-some are really nice,appreciative people,while some are the total opposite.

I feel they are just nice,simple people there,and certainly would miss working there,though it involves long hours and hard work.

Also,just when I though chivalry was dead,the guys there proved me wrong..All in all,I had an awesome time working there and this will definitely be saved in my memory of the times I spent there.Also made some interesting discovery about characters and personalities that I like.

p/s: It was interesting getting to see first hand how a fast food restaurant works and let's just say I wouldn't be eating for some time now as I am entitled to 1 meal everyday for the past 2 weeks at kfc that I all my cravings for it has been FULLY satisfied for now.

-with lots of love,peace out-

What are you thankful for?

I just got to know another shocking and sad news about a friend of mine.
I was stumped for a moment.
When you think you got it bad in life at times
Like why are you put to test on certain challenges,that you feel its unfair that auch challenges are thrown at you.
At times like this,I would try and remind myself at times that some people got it much more worse than you that your problem is not really much of a problem..

I try to remind myself time and again now that i should always be thankful that I am who and what I am today and that I should cherish and be thankful about everything that has been thrown towards me.To try and appreciate all the little things in life and not to take things for granted at times.

To my friend,I hope you recover soon and be completely cleared of what you are going through right now.I truly admire and salute you for being so strong and positive.. no words can really express how much i salute you for being so brave in fighting cancer.(leukemia)My prayers and most sincere wish goes out to you.

With lots of love ,hope you will be well soon,peace out-

Happy26thGDay

Am 4 days late.But happy birthday to the one and only Mr.Kwon Ji Yong.You know I love you a lot.(well,technically you dont,but almost the whole world that knows me knows this)

More updates soon!

-with lots of love,peace out-