Envy. I cant help but to feel so.
I have no one else to blame but myself.
I didn't work hard enough and I did not 'want' it.
I just hope and wish that i would get it.
Such unequal thought between reality and dreams,would definitely not come true.
I comfort myself that I have done well..(not well,just ok).
I tell myself-whatever has happened,its the past.
I should move forward and not dwell on the past.
Yes,let's do that.
Let's make sure I dont experience this feeling of bitterness again.
I know I am my own worst enemy and also the harshest critic of myself
That's how I try and strive to achieve what I want and deem as perfection.
-with lots of love,peace out-