Monday, March 19, 2012

Intention: Just merely to acknowledge. full stop.

Ahh,after hoping for this moment to happen for like 3 years,it did so today unexpectedly.I did not notice him at first,then I thought I saw him,but kind of dismiss the thought.And then I realized it's really him.Somehow though I got the feeling that he may have recognized my earlier but did not like say hi or call out my name or so.

At Seremban where majority of the people got down,there was like less than 10 people in the train and you were sitting in the opposite front side of me.For one second,we look at each other,but you look so cold/irritated that I did not dare to smile or show any recognition that I know you.

The awkward moment where we both got down at the same station where I actually attempted to ask if you're really you,but you got off quickly and was walking hurriedly trying not to make eye contact that I say to myself, ''ok.let's not say hi to each other than''.

Is it just me who have grown or is it just that I just realised that I am actually taller than you.To put it in a blunt way,you're short. Words from a friend who told me this during camp fire last time came to my mind : '' With his attitude like that,you deserve so much better'.He's not suitable for you.'' Hahahahaha.And I secretly agree with him again at that moment.

Dad came and I got into the car,ignoring the fact that you were in fact you.Are you afraid that I still hold a torch for you ? or are you just shy or freaked out to have met me ? Either way, I just feel it's sad that we can't even say hi to each other.Yes,we were never really close as friends in the first place,but it wouldn't kill just to say a simple 'hi' right? I mean,I'm a nice person in general really.

Rather than emo and being hurt,I just feel it's such a waste.What's wrong with just a simple hi? Well,I guess not everyone look at things the same way as I do.

Did my revision in a hospital today.Accompanied sis to do a check up.It took so long that I actually fell asleep for like 30 minutes and then woke up and resume studying.I think I must have got a lot of weird glances,but I don't care.I slept for a while in sentral (nearby star bucks there) last fri while waiting for sis.Too tired.hahahahaha. Went to collect my bag that I won.I thought the bag was big,but it was a bit smaller in size.But I'm very thankful to have won it.It's so mahal that I wouldn't buy it for myself.

It's a 3-in -1 bag =)
I take this as a pre-birthday present for myself which I got with RM 0.Which means,I intend to get myself something for my birthday.Don't know what should I get myself.Still contemplating =D

-with lots of love,peace out-

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