The 366th day.

It's 12am now and it's 31st December 2012 !!! Gosh,I feel time flies exceptionally fast this time.It feels only yesterday where it was like August and wosh! it's the last day of December already.

I would have to say the first half of the year was one of the most stressful time for me.Facing my 2nd year exam was seriously no joke.Learned a lesson (a regret that happens every year.hahaha) of the need to be more hardworking (always!) The exam was so stressful that I think I lost 3 kg and only realized it after my exams and all.Why i think this is so is because I didnt exercise and what not that much.=((((( Actually the first half of the year pass by so fast that made me go,huh.all this happened this year? damn...i forgot it did.Hahahaa.

Did not go to as many concerts as I did last year.But went to a really,really AWESOME one.Yes,you guys know it without me saying it right? BIG BANG ALIVE TOUR MALAYSIA 2012!!!!!! It's a concert that I've been dreaming of  for a VERY VERY LONG TIME!!! This might not be believable but the memory of the concert scenes and all are still very much fresh in my mind.

Also,visited my dream country (whom I actually hope if I really could,to live and work there for a short period of time ) as you would have seen me blog in my previous post.

This year,it's a year where I turned 21,got a lot of surprises which I am really thankful of.It made me cry when I'm in my room at the end of the day,replaying all that have happen! I learn over the years to not only look at the outcome of something but also to realize and appreciate the effort that has been put in in order to make something a success.

It also made me realized that I have really really  crazy awesome friends whom I can't thank enough.It made me feel really blessed and even more appreciative.From the bottom of my heart,thank you so so so so so much for being there for me.And I will try to be a better friend.

I've also been obsessed with bracelets that I decided to learn how to make simple ones myself.For those who follow me in twitter/instagram (yes.I am now on instagram also!! hehehehe) would be able to see my hasil kerja XD

Music and drama wise,has never been more awesome.New discoveries of new artists and songs are just pure l.o.v.e.Finding someone who have the same love for them is super awesome ! as it is usualyl hard to find someone who does.a scene that reminds me of this is in the movie 'perks of being a wallflower' of emma watson and ezra miller.Hahahaa.I dont know why,but it just is.This year has wayyyyyy lots of awesome korean drama(Rooftop Prince,King2Hearts,The Moon Embraces the Sun,I Miss You,-just to name a few) and also big bang theory,grey's and HIMYM always never disappoint.There's also many good movies this year,be it in any language.

Overall,this year has thought me that a person is always surrounded by change.It depends on oneself on whether one would want to change,be it good or bad.It made me realize that I need to be stronger and want to constantly improve myself for the better,mentally and physically.It made me appreciate all the little things in life.It made me realize that whenever you think you got it bad,there's wayyy more worse thing happening to other people that your problem is just a dot compared to others.It made me try to not self-pity myself for it's a very sad/pathetic thing at times.To get over it and just do it if you have the ability to do it,then do it!!

All in all,to quote Paulo Coelho who tweeted this today : ''Never regret anything that made you smile in 2012'' It's up to you to interpret this quote.For me,it's not just the literal meaning of smile,it's smiling sarcastically,evilly,sadly,happily,everything that I've gone through good and bad.

It will be a dawn of another new year come 1st January 2013.May everyone have a good year ahead of you.Am looking forward to it!! Lastly,I can't finish this post without saying this.I know this may be one of the most over-used phrase this year,especially towards the end of the year but,I can't help it, I SURVIVED 2012 people!!!!!!!!!! Mmmuhahahahaahahahahaaaaa..

p/s: just realized that this is my 200th post!!!!! Gahhh.such coincidence.:DDDD

till then,see y'all next year,with lots of love,peace out-

Stay cool

''You think you're weird (?) i think i'm weird..we are all weird in our own ways. '' I feel i have weird taste in music and other things in general at times.As in,not really a lot of people i know shares the same ones with me.
These words just came to my mind the other day where I just remembered I once said this to a friend of mine where we were chatting over in MSN.I think it was like 2 years ago.Hahhahaa.

Forever on my mind.

Hello.I've been neglecting the space here,what with my very active role in twitter and minimal ones in fb.And I am on instagram now too.Hehehee.

Life is normal as usual.It's the year end break before 2013.Am a bit stressed up for this hols as I know that I need to study as much as can.For come next year,things will move on quickly.Advanced timetable is out.Exams starts way early next year.May 7th-May 29th.There a good gap between all my 4 papers.So'I'm happy with the schedule this time around.

Parents are currently in Singapore and sis will be going to Thailand tomorrow.Skipped class today as I was too lazy to travel and coming back by myself either by walking or taking the taxi.And it's only been like 2 days but I'm bored.Only now that I realised that there's a diffrence between spending time alone at home where you know there's people there with you,only that you're just locking yourself in the room and there is really NO ONE at home.You literally having the house to yourself for 3-4 days.I just feel bored.Like I have no one to talk to.

My dog has also gone for his 1 week long or so holiday.Have not seen him for over a week.Saw him and his gf nearby my taman when I went out to dinner a few days back.And he just walked past us without recognizing us till my dad called him.He just suddenly stop,and looked and us and went,ohhhh.you guys were here? and started to come towards us! I went ''hmhpphhh,how can you not recognize us' *cries*

But I'm gonna meet my friend,Joey tomorrow for lunch and Ms.Lee is coming on Sat !!! Yayyyyy.I just have this feeling like I've not talk to people for a long time.Gahhhhh.

Short update

Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living. +Anais Nin

I like the quote above a lot.was browsing through some blogs where I stumbled upon that.You guys must have think I have a lot of free time,always browsing and discovering new blogs.I dont really.When I'm on study break time at home,I read blogs.Am a bit lazy of watching dramas at times.I like to multi task.And hence,the usual routine is reading blogs and hearing songs.Hhehehehe.

I have 2 important update which I have not gushed about here.My Big Bang concert and Korea trip.Shall update them soon (by end of this month)!!

How's life so far? Loving my new hair cut.Ms.Lee made me a shoe as past of her holiday project.I am soo touched and LOVE it!! Which reminds me,am gonna do a bracelet for my friend's birthday.Am searching for the perfect charm for it. I bought 2 rings from Korea and am indecisive as to turning them into a charm for my necklace,wearing them as rings (i dont usually wear rings-not really a ring person) or turning it into a charm for a bracelet.Gahhhhhh.

Am catching up in my studies and trying to utilize my free time as beneficial as possible.I keep reminding myself everytime I feel like postponing revising that I dont want to regret like how I did last year and after hearing on how well others did,I feel ashamed and to be honest,tak syok.So,I am gonna give it my all to try and get a 2.1 honours and make myself and my family proud!!!


2ne1 cancelled their New Evolution concert in Malaysia and Indonesia.I am heart broken.Was about to decide to go for the concert alone ( I couldn't find a partner in crime to go with me T.T) and and feel missing this concert,I'm gonna regret big time.And I really like CL's solo stage in the concert.To see it like is crazy awesome!!! Am in dilemma now on whether  I should go to FMFA where Rita Ora,Temper Trap,FUN and PSY are among the few artists coming,which I wanna see.Bad thing,maybe going alone.(Well I do have a friend who is going,only thing is I'm not really close to him).Sis remark was''You're that desperate to go,till you sanggup to go with someone you're not that close?'' And she asked me to choose between this festival and Lee Hom ( who will be coming in March for a 2 day concert at Genting-where sis lans to buy a mahal punya tic to see him really closeeeee this time). *SIGH* how?!!!!!! Can someone give me some opinion? *criessssssss* I have seen Lee Hom for a few times now.Being able to see Rita Ora and the Temper Trap live is something I never dream on really.It's a rare opportunity really.How??!!!!! T.T

Music department on current love: Primary,Zion.T,Lee Hi,Epik High-Kill This Love, Calvin Harris ft.Ellie Goulding-I need your Love,Calvin Harris ft.Ayah Marar-Thinking About You.Am also looking forward to Rihanna's new album =))

Have not been to the cinemas for what feels like years.The last time was in August? or Sept I think? *gasps* yes.And hence I usually just dl the movies that I wanna watch years later.Hahahahahaa.

Special shout out to my bestie on the other side of the world.I love surprises and she never fails to give me one always.You know who you are.Miss you lots.Didnt know she still reads my blog here as she leads a crazy busy life there.Love you lots and take care there.XOXOXXOOXXOXOXO

The other bestie is now in Aussie.3 weeks of not hanging out =(((( She's my only partner in crime for shopping or eating good food.Which while I was going out to meet her last weekend my parents remark was: ''Your one and only friend'' =.= because I usually just hang out with her.Hahahaha.I cannot imagine if she goes to Aussie for a year to further her studies.I'm sooo not gonna have anyone.*cries* hahahahahaa.Anyways,enjoy your trip there.Shall await for your return!!! <3 p="p">


-with lots of love,peace out-

I care,therefore I am.... an idiot (?) , I dont know

In no way am I trying to brag or portray myself as someone who have it all or is like living the 'it' life or whatsoever.I have moments where my self-esteem about my appearance is like super super low.As many of you guys may have notice in my older posts.But I try not to portray it outside so much for I hate being vulnerable.I am an optimist.Hence,I always try to look at the brighter side of things.

What I don't get about some people is that,they know what trouble they have in trying to live a new and improved life.( I think they know it consciously since they are like able to talk about it?) It's the all talk and no action that pisses me off a bit.I'm a bit of an impatient and impulsive person.And I have this concept of if you want it and have the ability to go get it,do it.If you just sit around and wait or moan about it,nothings gonna happen and at the end of the day it will be you who will be filled with regret.Let me tell you,that is the last thing you wanna feel.it sucks big time.Why? Because you can't turn back time.So once its gone,it's gone.

If you want something and you know it requires you to change,or it's something outside your comfort zone,well if its for the good,why not just try it ? Everything comes with a price.Some things requires more sacrifice.At the end of the day,you may or may not be able to realize that sometimes it's worth it.

I dont know if it's me watching too much shows,or studying too much or something but taking things with an open mind and reminding oneself to look at things from both sides,the good and back of it helps a lot.Yes,it could lead to contradiction or indecisiveness.Try not to get drown in it.Try to come up with the best solution possible.It's not easy and you may not always come to a solution.But it's a good learning process in my opinion.

It's a simple thing really.I don't really like complication nor confrontations in my life.I usually try to look at things as simple as possible.And hence,some maybe of the opinion that I lead a simple,happy life without any worries or stress or whatsoever.Its far from it at times.I just usually choose not to display it on the outside and prefer writing it down,like in this blog or tweet about it.I dont like / am not good at expressing it out verbally at times.Plus,I do prefer to keep things towards myself at times,first trying to figure out a solution.

Gahhh.I dont know.I was fueled with annoyance to write this post.A voice within me is telling me I care too much and I dont know why. Is it even considered as care? or am I just a busybody? =((((

Ok.I dont wanna give a shit somemore.Tired of it...It's a wadte of my energy.I repeat and vow that I dont wanna give a shit about it anymore.

with lots of love (?),peace out-

Thoughts.

This thought just came into my week last week, 'Ahhh, Fakeness. Perhaps everyone has a certain level of it? It depends on how you present yourself to people / the world and how people interpret it.

I guess at times,I do fake it too.Some for courtesy purposes.I guess I'm too nice or unable to bring myself to show that I actually have a great dislike for that person? Now though,I try to stay away from the person I dislike as far as possible.It's better and healthier in my opinion.

I've written in one of the posts here before that it takes time for me to warm up to people.I'm generally perceived as a quiet person if you don't know me well.For e.g: if I do know you,but we're not close,or like have ever really spoke to each other,chances are I won't really say 'hi' to you when I meet you? maybe a slight smile.that's all.I think it's a bit of an ego/pride issue here? Like just in case I say 'hi' to you and you don't respond to it.Ohh.the embarassment.Also,I am afraid that you don't recognise/ actually know who I am.Hahahahaha.

I wonder at times,do I come on as arrogant due to my kinda 'cold' personality if you may.I get that a lot when I was in primary school.I do admit I was a miss-know-it-all.It's just that if I know something where I am 100% sure of that I'm right,I'll tell you straight on that,''this is it.that's the answer.I'm absolutely confident of it''And I guess the confidence came out as arrogance and that people actually hate me for it.After that,being humble and over the years,I prefer to just keep a low profile now.

Or people think that I'm fierce or just a plain nerd whom does not know anything other than reading/studying.

I hate being used.(who does right?) And I know how it feels.Experienced some directly and that feeling sucks.Hence,I tired not giving people that vibe.How does one define 'using somebody' ? Having thought about it,I realised it's a bit hard to come up with an answer.I feel (feel free to disagree with me) that we do use people everyday.It's just not over the extend of too much,you know what I mean? I'm not then implying that using someone is hence good, it's just don't use someone purely for your own advantage and when they're of no use to you,just drop them like a hot potato.I don't know about you,but my conscience does not feel right doing these kinda things.

I think too much don't I? It's not like I always have too much free time,just that from some daily encounters,people watching at train stations got me thinking.I write these thoughts down in a way as a reminder to me to practice what I preach (?) and I take it as something to change/improve myself for the better.
 p/s:stay strong mei quin!!!!! am always here supporting you!
-till then,with lots of love,peace out-

Happened // Happening Soon

Hello October.Time flies again.A lot of happenings had happened or will soon be happening! First off, a Birthday Shoutout to Phui Gi --Happy 21st!!!!!! It's not everyday you come to the day where you are regarded generally as an officially,(legally,and traditionally (?)) as an adult. =))

The King of Gold Bells is back to UK.Ahhh,the short moments where we attended classes together are fun and definitely to be missed ! *cries* All the best there,and I am bad at keeping in touch at times,but that does not mean that I don't care.*angel halo above the head* hehehehehe.

H&M have finally reached Malaysia.I was so excited to go for shopping.But the place was just so crowded that you lose the sense of excitement.I have to confess here also that I was a super kedekut shopper.Like I would really think twice,ok,more like a million times over before I buy stuff at first.I am worried that I'll regret it later on,or like it's not worth the money.I also weigh in the practicality of the items.Hence,I could go shopping the whole day and ended up not buying a single thing and then going home regretting at times.Gahhhhhhh.Also,tyhe stuffs that I came to feel in love with at times,is a bit pricey.Like a rm 150 or so flats from Topshop and a bag from Muji which is like rm 280 *le sigh* See,if I were to purchase these all in one day,of the burning smell in my wallet is sooo strong.But,I know,I know,I spend more willingly on concerts.Don't ask me why.I can't give a justified answer to this.COme to think of it,clothes,and shoes and  bags do last longer than concert.T.T Oh well.Ohh.I am also hunting for sneakers.Have yet to find a really really really nice one that I like.My Nike of 3 years ++ (the first sneakers I bought with my own money) is not really in its best condition.It's almost time to say goodbye.

I am tempted to buy a high top sneakers.Am targeting either from Adidas or Converse ( a red one.heh heh) but am in doubt one how often I would use them and feel I need a normal one also.Gahhh.See what I mean in me being a kedekut/shopper that thinks too much ?!! *cries*

Ok.I shall stop about my wants on shopping.I have chosen my subjects for the final hurdle.Jurisprudence and Company Law is both compulsory officially and unofficially.So that leaves me with 2.I find Succession interesting in its own way.So am torn in between Conflict and Intellectual Property ( IP ) .For I find both are interesting also.Final decision is: *drum rolls* Juris,Company,Succession and IP.I hope I made the right choice (i dont wanna ponder about this already) and God bless my friends and I all for our exams.

I'm still have not come up with a final decision/plan for Big Bang concert/Korea trip thing.Like how am I suppose to meet my sis and all that stuff.One thing for sure is that I think I might be attending both events.You know I don't like things to go to spontaneous or planned at last minute at times.But have not succeeded to have a ''serious'' talk about this with my sis =.=''''' And I am in a way,planning the itinerary for the Korea trip.The accommodation has been settle.Gahhh.sedikit stress on planning cos if its not enjoyable and stuff, it's gonna ruin the trip. So , fingers crossed on this.

Am excited to see Big Bang.It's like a dream finally coming true.Am of course a bit bummed that  I will not see the entire concert.But it's better than not seeing at all and  I hope (*prays*) I get to see them another time.Am also waiting for confirmation of 2ne1 having concert here a well. See there goes all my money.Hahaha.But I do hope I get to see them for I love them a lot.=))))

ok.enough rambling.this is a long post i think for I tend to just write and ramble on and on at times without realising how long the  post is gonna be.I think I talk/dramatized too much at times.Gahhh.it's a hard to change habit of mine i guess.

-till then,lots of  love,peace out-