Captured moments

New drink decoration by Ms.Sweet

''Innocently'' drinking alcoholic drinks with an out of this world cups.hahaha

using out of this world spoons.

eating maggi later.

Eating fest continues the next morning .

End product:Lasagne 

Some overdue pics from my phone of the last few hours of ms.sweet,ms.lee and I hanging out before she flies back to Scotland.Time passed by so freaking fast.Didnt take enough pics really.It's a combo of we forgot about it and us not being enough of a camera whore.Hahahahaha.But those uncaptured moments will still remain fresh in my (our) minds.( i hope) =))

-with lots of love,peace out-

Choices.Decisions.Let's Do This

It's finally started.I was calculating how long I have been commuting by the ktm to college.It's been 3years.Even my brain salutes myself for being to endure it.Time flies so fast.I see myself grow fatter,thinner,self-confidence being low from time to time about my face,the way I dress and the stuffs that I like and the way I look at things.

This it it.I can't believe I have reach the stage where I'm in my final year.Regrets about not working hard always happens after you got your results.But I know that I have no one else to blame but myself.Having not expecting to get high grades before the results are out helps a lot (for me) but then when you start hearing how well your peers do,the competitive/kiasu side of me gets the feeling of 'tak mahu kalah'.I used to try and not compare myself so much with others at times,but I'm only human and I can't help it.Not only in terms of grades,but in other stuffs as well.And then a voice inside of me tells me that I shouldn't that we're all different.

I dont want have to feel what regret and 'what ifs' again this time around.I can do this.I can endure this.I have the mental capacity and energy (hopefully enough of them) to do this.I am a believer of the words,'If you want something and have the ability to do it then go get it'.However,to want something at times requires sacrifice.You can't see it at times,it maybe in another form.It makes sense though as one can't have everything and not give up something in return.It wouldn't be fair if it is.I.can.do.this.

Classes have start.I'm in conflict as to which subject I want to take.Some said this is hard,that is easier,and then you hear opposite opinions on that.Lecturers is another influencing factor to me also.Hopefully by end of this week I can come up with a conclusive opinion.CJA fighting!!!

-with lots of love,peace out-

I guess its human nature

I dont know about you,but have you have moments where you get something you wished/hoped for,you then go on and want to have something more? To put it in another way,there is a certain amount of greed in all of us.It's just how consumed in it are we to really commit one of this 7 sins.

I have over the years not try to really compare myself in terms of grades specifically here to others.I hate it back then where my parents compare me and my high school friends.In college,they still do.I dont know if its cause they're teachers or something,but its irritating and hurtful for them to benchmark you against others at times.'You did good,but others was better-why are you not then?'

I have only tried not to think about others so much towards the end of my high school life.In college,I realised that there will always be people who are smarter than you,prettier and at times makes you feel that overall,that person is just better than you.At times where I am at my lowest,to describe myself in one word  (wholly not just on face value basis) would be me feeling ugly.Also,why am I not good enough?Yes.yes.moments of insecurities and low self-esteem.

Then I'll go why am i not good enough and all that drama and self-pitying and shit.At the end of the day though,if I want to life a life with that kinda thinking then i guess i would just not be happy being me.So,sometimes I do care how people perceive me.the words of a person telling me that i'm a goody two-shoes still rings in my head from time to time.And no,i did not take that as a compliment.I try not not give a shit much on what people think of me at times.You just can't please everyone.

Yea.I did a lot of waiting on Monday where I was waiting for the train and sorting my touch n go stuff at sentral.And so this thought s just came up and I stored it in my mind to blog about it,.Still working on how to further improve/change myself for the better,though its not easy I know.

My concept now is to give it all I've got,and if you have the ability to get/achieve it,go get it so that you wont live with regrets for you can't turn back time no matter how badly you wish for it at times.

Other than these kinda emo moments though,I am generally a happy,optimistic and simple,blur looking person.Who at times, my sister put it,only 'walks straight' and dont know how to look left or right at times =.=

-with lots of love,peace out-

Birthday Shout out to Ms.King Gold Bell

Many happy returns again! (i think that is my current fav. birthday wish to people in general) hahahhaha.Had a good time today.Hope you do too.Had not really been hanging out a lot but every now and then punya hang out is truly an awesome and memorable one <3 p="p">
-with lots of love,happy birthday kim!-

I'm not the tidiest person out there.I admit that i can be soooo super lazy at times.But when I clean up my room,etc.I really do them.And who likes seeing it being messed up right? It pisses me off really.I'm no neat freak.But like after eating and all,dont just chuck everything and leave it for me to clear up just because I'm currently having holiday and am very free.I dont see you doing that to me.

And the most irritating part at times is then being blamed for cleaning the room,lazy,blah,blah blah.Why is it that only one side of it is being seen? Yes.call me selfish or calculative or whatever .When I speak these out loud,I'm being called as of the above selfish and calculative.So,do you expect me to do everything? You have your own hands and legs.It's not that you're super incapable.Then the reason of being in an accident last time,and so cannot do heavy housework or stressful environment all week is tiring and so you should help out come up.

But then,when you're angry,you say i dont know how to do the housework and all.Seriously.How can I not be pissed off? You're preaching to someone who does it for siblings MOST of the time? The make the place dirty and all and then go back to KL,I'll have to clean it. And the reason of being the youngest,your siblings have been doing it  for years come up.So,does this mean that they dont have to do it for the rest of their lives now since I have to 'gain the experience' now? Sorry,I dont see any logic in it. It's not that I am not willing to do it,it's just that sometimes I'm fed up.I am no saint and have a certain level of patience ok..and I'm tired of arguing about this and just prefer to not retort back.I however need to let this all out somewhere.And it helps by writing all these down.

-peace put-

I'll remember

I've been posting this annually for 4 years already,including this year.R.I.P Lee Eon.
Till today I am still not bored of Coffee Prince.And everytime i re-watch the drama,I can't believe that you're no longer on Earth.

-with lots of love-

V.I.P

Being the failed fan that I am,I was supposed to post this on the 18th of August,but I forgot.Happy Birthday to the one and only Kwon Ji Young.He is the person whom I have a million times dengan muka tebalnya refer to as my husband =p And I know he may not be the most good looking guy out there and at times may have a weird taste in fashion and hairstyle( cant help but admit this) I still *please prepare to vomit for the ultimate corny-ness* I still LOVE him. And also,Happy 6th Anniversary to Big Bang.Can't believe its already 6 years that I've been obsessed with them.=ppp I dont think I need t further explain how much I love them though for I think most people know how crazy I am over them.hahahahaha

p/s: Can't wait for the 25th!! G.D.'s mv gonna be out.Can't wait even more for his solo album!!!!

with lots of love,peace out