I have known this girl since I was 8 years old and fast forward many years later, she is now an official graduate in the field of actuarial science!!
We have been classmates throughout primary and secondary school and there were too many moments where I have copied her homework( yes,me being lazy) ,competing with each other to see who will finish copying sejarah notes and whatnot as given by our teacher and me being motivated to give my best shot to do well in my tests and exams.
Also,we ponteng class together,got into trouble a bit and curi makan dalam kelas, vandalizing the school table ( where i was always the one who got caught-specifically at bio lab-so not fair ! Boooo ) .Ahh,the memories.Then we parted ways heading to different colleges to further pursue our degrees with the aim of graduating and working in the field we have interest in .
And on 21.6.2013 she graduated!! Words can be written down and expressed enough how proud I am of her-Ms.Sweet.Wished I could be there,but sadly I cant.Am looking forward to meet you soon :DD
Another chapter of your life has closed but a new one is starting soon!! Wishing you all the best and I know you are gonna ace it :))
P/s: thanks for reading my blog from time to time*terharu*
-with lots of love,peace out-
Monday, June 24, 2013
Monday, June 10, 2013
Just some venting and self pitying.
You know at times where you tend to be perceived as someone who is strong and independent and cool with stuffs in general, that people take that trait of yours for granted.However,it tends to get frustrating at times.
Its not that i am self pitying myself (come to think of it,there is a little here,but whatever,i need a place to vent out my thoughts and what not) it's just at times, internally i am screaming " Hey, I have feelings too you know" I am no robot. I do have emotions- to feel tired, and angry and frustrated at times. Sometimes, I just want to do nothing and laze around and just get to be lazy,not feel the need to be responsible for every tiny little thing.
When you then show out how you truly feel,people deem that you are overreacting, being selfish and calculative now.Like 'why cant you be less immature and selfish and be more open?'
I have been,but, there are just some moment in every human where you just have the ' I am sick and tired of this shit' feeling and some moment of weakness and want to rely on someone instead.
When that moment comes though,at times you find yourself not knowing how to react to it as you are used to being strong,etc,etc.And so you tell you self to stop all the self pitying and whatnot and just be strong.
And slowly then,you start to build a wall around you,and if it is possible,try to solve things on your own and not asking people for help because that's how you were trained (indirectly) to be. Doing your own thing and not really complain when you feel troubled or tired as you are usually the one people take for granted for.The one who does not seem to have any problems,insecurities,sadness,or loneliness.
Its not that i am self pitying myself (come to think of it,there is a little here,but whatever,i need a place to vent out my thoughts and what not) it's just at times, internally i am screaming " Hey, I have feelings too you know" I am no robot. I do have emotions- to feel tired, and angry and frustrated at times. Sometimes, I just want to do nothing and laze around and just get to be lazy,not feel the need to be responsible for every tiny little thing.
When you then show out how you truly feel,people deem that you are overreacting, being selfish and calculative now.Like 'why cant you be less immature and selfish and be more open?'
I have been,but, there are just some moment in every human where you just have the ' I am sick and tired of this shit' feeling and some moment of weakness and want to rely on someone instead.
When that moment comes though,at times you find yourself not knowing how to react to it as you are used to being strong,etc,etc.And so you tell you self to stop all the self pitying and whatnot and just be strong.
And slowly then,you start to build a wall around you,and if it is possible,try to solve things on your own and not asking people for help because that's how you were trained (indirectly) to be. Doing your own thing and not really complain when you feel troubled or tired as you are usually the one people take for granted for.The one who does not seem to have any problems,insecurities,sadness,or loneliness.
What?
Everyone is a little screwed up in their own little weird way.
Is it because of this that we tend to consciously/subconsciously strive to fill a void?
A void that is deemed by us of something known as perfection.
It's where everyone of us is trying to achieve from our own perspective of what we think perfection is.
It's a subjective thing and when perspective collide,it leads to many different kind of result.
Is it all worth it? For how long would we be happy once we have achieved it?
I find myself thinking about this.
I remind myself not too be too caught up in this,
To at times stop,look back and appreciate all that I have experienced.
With that also I find myself thinking,what is it in life that I am living for?
-with lots of love,peace out-
Is it because of this that we tend to consciously/subconsciously strive to fill a void?
A void that is deemed by us of something known as perfection.
It's where everyone of us is trying to achieve from our own perspective of what we think perfection is.
It's a subjective thing and when perspective collide,it leads to many different kind of result.
Is it all worth it? For how long would we be happy once we have achieved it?
I find myself thinking about this.
I remind myself not too be too caught up in this,
To at times stop,look back and appreciate all that I have experienced.
With that also I find myself thinking,what is it in life that I am living for?
-with lots of love,peace out-
Friday, May 24, 2013
Perfection. I could not have asked for anything more awesome.
As many of you guys who follow me in twitter /fb wold know that I was very excited when Jo In SUng was coming to have a small fanmeet for his drama That Winter The Wind Blows.
He came on the 21st evening, luckily my paer on that day was a morning paper so I went to Paradigm Mall with Ms.Lee right fter my paper and hang out there.We queued for like 4 hours (?) to be able to be the first 50 to get free goodies and to get a good place to stand and see him.It was worth it :DDDD
When he came out,it was just so surreal.I didnt expect for him to come to Malaysia to be honest because it's quite rare for korean actors to come to malaysia to promote their dramas and what not.When he came out I just died,he is sooooooo good looking in real life.And he is a really nice person.
When he spoke,I just went crazy lah...I love his voice.Hahahahaa.And he kept making funny and cute expression that you feel he was never bored during the whole event.And he was so nice to the fans who was picked to went up stage to play games with him..There's this couple who went,and before he wanted to hug the girl,he asked the girl's boyfriend whether it was ok to do that. I was like HOW NICE CAN THIS PERSON BE?!!!!!!!!!!! And some fans who wanna take pic with him using their own phones and wanna hug him again before the leave,he just courteously obliged to it.
I was thinking to myself,where in the world would I be able to meet like a real (non-celebrity guy ) like him? It's so so so rare.
Ms.Lee and I went home that night and decided to make a card for him...We planned to go to the airport the next morning to see him as the organizer provided the info on what time his flight to singapore will be..But due to lack of sleep and both of us being a bit lazy as we woke up really early,decided to go to his hotel instead which was just at kl sentral.
And so that's what we did,to try our luck. We went to ask the hotel staffs there and was a bit worried that they wouldnt wanna tell us anything,but they were really very helpful and nice to us...When we went there,we find it funny.There were only 2 of us who was waiting for him.We were shocked as well as we thought they maybe some other fans there too!!
We waited for him for like 2 hours,and one of the hotel staff told us that they cant guarantee that he will come out using the normal way,as usually celebs who staed at their hotel will exit through a private exit but just tell us to wait and try out luck.... and so we did...
We were really really really lucky as he decided to use the normal exit that day!! When he came down,i think at first he didnt notice that we were his fans as there were only 2 of us like standing at the side stunned for 2 seconds there of not believing that he is walking past us now,and ms.lee handed out fan letter to him and he suddenly went 'oh,thank you' and he went out to sit at the like rest area for a moment...We were of course not allowed to go in there,there were the malaysians and his korean staffs there blocking the entrance,...But we went to another side,and we saw him reading our letter ON THE SPOT and nodding his head as he was reading...Not long after that,he saw us standing at the side,and held up his hand,holding the letter saying he has read it and said thank you!!!! AHhhhhh...
Not long after he got up and it was time for him to leave already...We followed behind him to his car,and he kept turning back and said bye bye to us...And when he entered the car,waved several times and finally when the car was about to drive away,he waved again to us...Ms.Lee and I just DIED i tell you,JUST DIED.We could not believe our luck!
Yes.Many of you would wanna ask me,did I then manage to take a pic with him? Sadly we did not...We were just too stunned at the moment and forgot to ask him that.I took a pic of him but not with him...But all in all,I feel very lucky to be able to meet him...And I can bravely say that,at least for that 5 mins or more,he really looked at me and knew who I was,cause there were only 2 of us there.Haahahahaa.
This is an incident that I will never forget for the rest of of my life.Never in my dreams really i would expect him to come,and to be able to meet him so close and having some private/closer interaction with him?!! I could not ask for anything more awesome than this (well a pic with him would be epic) but it;s ok....Hope I get to see him again one day and get to take a pic WITH him then when that time comes....
Feel the need to write this down as this is something that I truly wanna remember...Though its already embedded in my mind and heart,and i am still rewinding that scene over and over again,i wanna put it down in words also.=))))
-till then,with lots of love and day dreaming of jo in sung, peace out-
He came on the 21st evening, luckily my paer on that day was a morning paper so I went to Paradigm Mall with Ms.Lee right fter my paper and hang out there.We queued for like 4 hours (?) to be able to be the first 50 to get free goodies and to get a good place to stand and see him.It was worth it :DDDD
When he came out,it was just so surreal.I didnt expect for him to come to Malaysia to be honest because it's quite rare for korean actors to come to malaysia to promote their dramas and what not.When he came out I just died,he is sooooooo good looking in real life.And he is a really nice person.
When he spoke,I just went crazy lah...I love his voice.Hahahahaa.And he kept making funny and cute expression that you feel he was never bored during the whole event.And he was so nice to the fans who was picked to went up stage to play games with him..There's this couple who went,and before he wanted to hug the girl,he asked the girl's boyfriend whether it was ok to do that. I was like HOW NICE CAN THIS PERSON BE?!!!!!!!!!!! And some fans who wanna take pic with him using their own phones and wanna hug him again before the leave,he just courteously obliged to it.
I was thinking to myself,where in the world would I be able to meet like a real (non-celebrity guy ) like him? It's so so so rare.
Ms.Lee and I went home that night and decided to make a card for him...We planned to go to the airport the next morning to see him as the organizer provided the info on what time his flight to singapore will be..But due to lack of sleep and both of us being a bit lazy as we woke up really early,decided to go to his hotel instead which was just at kl sentral.
And so that's what we did,to try our luck. We went to ask the hotel staffs there and was a bit worried that they wouldnt wanna tell us anything,but they were really very helpful and nice to us...When we went there,we find it funny.There were only 2 of us who was waiting for him.We were shocked as well as we thought they maybe some other fans there too!!
We waited for him for like 2 hours,and one of the hotel staff told us that they cant guarantee that he will come out using the normal way,as usually celebs who staed at their hotel will exit through a private exit but just tell us to wait and try out luck.... and so we did...
We were really really really lucky as he decided to use the normal exit that day!! When he came down,i think at first he didnt notice that we were his fans as there were only 2 of us like standing at the side stunned for 2 seconds there of not believing that he is walking past us now,and ms.lee handed out fan letter to him and he suddenly went 'oh,thank you' and he went out to sit at the like rest area for a moment...We were of course not allowed to go in there,there were the malaysians and his korean staffs there blocking the entrance,...But we went to another side,and we saw him reading our letter ON THE SPOT and nodding his head as he was reading...Not long after that,he saw us standing at the side,and held up his hand,holding the letter saying he has read it and said thank you!!!! AHhhhhh...
Not long after he got up and it was time for him to leave already...We followed behind him to his car,and he kept turning back and said bye bye to us...And when he entered the car,waved several times and finally when the car was about to drive away,he waved again to us...Ms.Lee and I just DIED i tell you,JUST DIED.We could not believe our luck!
Yes.Many of you would wanna ask me,did I then manage to take a pic with him? Sadly we did not...We were just too stunned at the moment and forgot to ask him that.I took a pic of him but not with him...But all in all,I feel very lucky to be able to meet him...And I can bravely say that,at least for that 5 mins or more,he really looked at me and knew who I was,cause there were only 2 of us there.Haahahahaa.
This is an incident that I will never forget for the rest of of my life.Never in my dreams really i would expect him to come,and to be able to meet him so close and having some private/closer interaction with him?!! I could not ask for anything more awesome than this (well a pic with him would be epic) but it;s ok....Hope I get to see him again one day and get to take a pic WITH him then when that time comes....
Feel the need to write this down as this is something that I truly wanna remember...Though its already embedded in my mind and heart,and i am still rewinding that scene over and over again,i wanna put it down in words also.=))))
-till then,with lots of love and day dreaming of jo in sung, peace out-
short update
Hello again there.Ye,I have noticed that I have gone m.i.a from this blog for like a month now...Well,I have a perfect valid reason here: I am currently battling the war with my final exam.. Have a final paper on the 29th and then I am unofficially done with my law degree!
How did all the paper go so far? I have seriously no idea,i mean for some papers i could answer them and for some,i am not so sure.I think I may have screwed up my IP paper.UOL has this opposite effect where you think you would do well on that paper,it will turn out to be your worse one and vice versa =.= So,am not putting any expectations,just preparing myself for the worst.
Please,may the force be with me to be able to pass all my papers and at least let me get a second lower degree honours.Anything but not a third class.I dont know what I will do if I were to get that.Seriously,I dont know what I will do...
May the force also be with me to let me go through my final paper,Give me strength to be able to finish my revision and be able to do that paper.Gahhhh.I shall see you guys soon! many plans ahead after the exams which I hope will all go well successfully and hopefully some plans will be able to become reality!!
-till then,with lots of love,peace out-
How did all the paper go so far? I have seriously no idea,i mean for some papers i could answer them and for some,i am not so sure.I think I may have screwed up my IP paper.UOL has this opposite effect where you think you would do well on that paper,it will turn out to be your worse one and vice versa =.= So,am not putting any expectations,just preparing myself for the worst.
Please,may the force be with me to be able to pass all my papers and at least let me get a second lower degree honours.Anything but not a third class.I dont know what I will do if I were to get that.Seriously,I dont know what I will do...
May the force also be with me to let me go through my final paper,Give me strength to be able to finish my revision and be able to do that paper.Gahhhh.I shall see you guys soon! many plans ahead after the exams which I hope will all go well successfully and hopefully some plans will be able to become reality!!
-till then,with lots of love,peace out-
Sunday, April 21, 2013
How is one ever prepared to face death?
Never perhaps(?) ,though it is an inevitable fact.
Some never even think of it." I am is still young,death is for the sick,the old."
One never actually really knows until it hits you.
To be prepared to lose someone very dear in your life,
Knowing that you will not in your lifetime ever get to see them,hear their voice,or touch them,
It's something i feel no human being can ever get over it completely.
Even if its a forseeable thing,something you can see happening imminently.
To face it bravely,requires a lot of courage.
Even if one does it successfully,to remain collected after the entire process,
Its something that no one person can do by themselves.
Be strong my friend.
Time heals and life will go on.It will never be an easy thing to do,but
Memories of all the happy and sad moments embedded in your mind and soul will,I believe help.
This is dedicated to a friend of mine.Take care and stay strong.
-with lots of love-
Never perhaps(?) ,though it is an inevitable fact.
Some never even think of it." I am is still young,death is for the sick,the old."
One never actually really knows until it hits you.
To be prepared to lose someone very dear in your life,
Knowing that you will not in your lifetime ever get to see them,hear their voice,or touch them,
It's something i feel no human being can ever get over it completely.
Even if its a forseeable thing,something you can see happening imminently.
To face it bravely,requires a lot of courage.
Even if one does it successfully,to remain collected after the entire process,
Its something that no one person can do by themselves.
Be strong my friend.
Time heals and life will go on.It will never be an easy thing to do,but
Memories of all the happy and sad moments embedded in your mind and soul will,I believe help.
This is dedicated to a friend of mine.Take care and stay strong.
-with lots of love-
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Thoughts
Hearing,reading and seeing things happening around me lately,
It made me think;
Is there such a thing as 'forever' in relationships?
If there is no forever,can there be a lasting one?
Love.
Its such a beautiful thing.
At the same time,its a scary thing.
It can be a drug,giving you ecstasy.
Or it can be a poison which slowly kills you.
Which one will it be? Could it be both?
From what I have learnt though,
There is always an exception.
Thankfully,there is.phew.
It made me think;
Is there such a thing as 'forever' in relationships?
If there is no forever,can there be a lasting one?
Love.
Its such a beautiful thing.
At the same time,its a scary thing.
It can be a drug,giving you ecstasy.
Or it can be a poison which slowly kills you.
Which one will it be? Could it be both?
From what I have learnt though,
There is always an exception.
Thankfully,there is.phew.
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