Why?

Sometimes you think you have a rough idea of how a person is.
You never expect them to change or thought they will.
The words ''People generally don't change ya.It's very hard for people to change at times'' came into my mind.

As I watch someone I know change for the worse right in front of my eyes.
It's just sad.I was shocked,disappointed and disgusted.
How could a person change to being someone who is so cruel?
Yes,you just need to just breathe,to just stop time for one moment and relax.

All I see was you are just escaping.
It maybe a hard thing to accept,the reality.
But everything happens for a reason.
Have you ever thought of what your consequences might lead to?

I can't understand why did you do it.
We were never close due to our age gap.
I maybe deemed as 'still a kid' and dont understand stuff.

Well,I may not know how complicated things were.
But to see you hurt the people who loves you the most.
To see them go through the pain.
It's just sad.
I wished you could see what you have put them through.

Maybe that time will come one day for you to realize.
I am afraid when that time comes,it will be too late.
For it is not easy for one to forgive another.
If forgiveness was ever or eventually given,
One does not forget easily.

It's just sad.

Strangers

Ahhh, I met you again after about a year or so.
Thoughts of the past replayed in my mind.
It's sad,that we can't at least be courteous with each other and just smile at each other or say a simple 'hi' as a form of acknowledgement.
There will come a day where we will just be strangers to each other.
Not that we already are in that situation now.

One thing is for sure.
I checked with my heart about my feelings this time around,
I feel nothing.

Madness..

*please be warned that this is an account on what happened during GDA and there may be moments of craziness and over-enthusiasm from the writer whom at the spur of the moment may not be in her right mind.And in no way does she intend to show off how lucky she was or anywhere along the line.This maybe a long/kinda detailed account of what happened,and do feel free to skip it if its too much.* Jutaan terima kasih


It's a first time for me to attend a 2 day event concert thing.And what more,a kpop one! Was in dilemma of attending it initially but I wouldn't forgive myself if I didnt go because I get to see all the artist that I've been dreaming of seeing one shot in 2 days!!! I think it was a first time for me to have run for my life to book a good place for queuing.There are 2 entrance for this event and after passing through the 1st entrance the 2d entrance is like 300m further in.So,everyone just run for their life to be first in line again.Joey's friend ran for day 1.And i ran alone for day 2,booking places for like 6 people.OH,the stress.It's been a long time since my school sports day that I run like this.It was like a running competition.Heck,i think i only joined running competition throughout my highschool days  once which when I was 15/16 i think =.=

Day 1 of GDA has more boybands and it was okok for me because all the artist that I have more liking for were performing on day 2. The performers for day 1 was Exo,Suju,Shinee, CN Blue,4 minute,Beast,Infinite,B1A4,BToB,Kara and FT Island,Forgive me if I have missed out any.And it was awesome! just pure awesome.Took the free shuttle bus to Sepang (of all places,they picked this place =.= ) and reach there a bit late,but it was a new experience,figuring out ways to get there and going there alone.Met a friend while taking the bus and we kinda parted ways when we reach the venue cause she and I bought diff zone tics..but we bump into each other again at the end of the concert while waiting for our friends.And i then later found out that we actually share the SAME BIRTHDAY!!! Such coincidence right?
My partner in crime for concerts (esp kpop ones) ,Joey, who is one of the luckiest person I ever know,won the VVIP and backstage passes to this event and hence,during day 1 she was not with me.I more or less stand alone for this concert,which is kinda new to me,and got to know another nice lady...who turns out to be working in samsung and hence we started talking and stuff.She is very much older than me and getting to hear her working experience and all was really interesting. The highlight of day 1 for me was seeing mainly all of the boy bands.

But after the end of day 1,which was tiring,(one of the after effects of concerts) i knew that day 2 was gonna be EPIC.Why? because it has Ailee,Lee Hi,f(x),Miss A ,Sistar,B.A.P, Teen Top,K.will,huh gak ,Epik high and the one and only,the one person that I dengan tidak malunya claim is my husband Mr.Kwon Ji Yong,aka G DRAGON!!!!!!! I couldnt believe that I get to meet him so soon already after the Alive Tour.Gahhhhh.The security and all was more strict on Day 2,because day 1 was like chaos when they open up the gates.People were literally running for their life to get a good place (as it was all free standing) and some lost their shoe,got step on after falling down and some just crashed into near by rubbish bin (the big type) which really freaked me out.As on day 1 ,i was alone and saw that there's still so much space left in the zone i am standing and was ok with not standing first row,I just coolly walked in.

On day 2,Joey manage to book first row places for me.(am really really really really very thankful).Got filmed my some camera men and appeared on the screen a couple of times.This is really an amusing thing for me.Hahaha.Cause some times,we were screaming out lungs out and was not aware of it.HAHAHAHAHA.You can really see the division of fan clubs through this event.ost people were only there tot he the 1 fav group of theirs.For. e.g.: exo. And will scream their heart and lungs out only when they come out.Me being more neutral,screamed for majority of them.But then,saved my energy for the ones i really really love.Hahhahaa.Like,when Huh gak was singing,all of us were like keeping our energy towards the end,cause we knew that G.D would be the last one coming out.But the last 3-4 acts were my fav one of all.I.e the one I looked most forward to in this event,and I just went crazy for them.It started off with Teen Top ( i kinda like their songs a lot) and I think I was the only one screaming like a mad woman in my area,because the people in my area there were all Big bang fans.But i didnt care.And I first apologize for my in coming craziness.HAHAHAHAA.Then it was Epik High . Never in my dreams would I expect them to come to Malaysia,cause to be honest,their fan base here is not as big compared to other idol groups out there.AND AND AND,they performed 'Get Out' which is one of my fav track int he album and I just went crazy.I tell you CRAZY. I just put my camera into my bag and said screw it.not gonna take pics and just gonna enjoy the atmosphere. And lo behold,no words need more emphasis and I guess you guys can guess that when G.D came out,lagi lah I went crazy.To hear him sing Crayon,One of a kind,Light it up (with tablo!! one of my fav tack off the album also) and Heartbreaker  is just SUPER SURREAL. And i actually get to see him so much more closer compared to Alive tour although I had first row standing places also for alive tour.

This event was tiring as hell,went to stay at a hotel (didnt went back to seremban) with joey and her friends.Got to meet her friend from singapore and her friend's friends from China (who is studying in s'pore also).And they are such hardcore fans that i really salute their dedication! Ooh and one of the China girl got G.D"S TOWEL!!!!! Gahhhh,get to see it when we went back to the hotel. *faints* OOH,and I GOT TO TOUCH DJ TUKUTZ FROM EPIK HIGH!!!!!! Towards the end of day 2,all the artists gathered at the front (extended stage) and he came down and was just in front of me.And seeing fans trying to touch him and all,he further leaned  forward to let them touch him.HAHAHAHA.it was a funny and crazy moment.HAHAHAHAAA. And on Day 1,Shinee's Key waved at me.Nope.Am not perasan cause I was the only one in my area who was waving like crazy towards him.HAHAHHAAHAAAA.Ohhh,and I got to see G.D's rehearsal before the show started on Day 2.had to squat down and see through a fence,but its worth it.And all i can say is that he is really a perfectionist and likes to act cool. =((( Let's just say i could not be any more starstruck that night .hehehee

This is truly something I will treasure for life.And the after effects of this event is kinda great.It's like I am suddenly adapting myself to this 2 day kinda thing,where after the first day,you go back to hotel,shower and then fan girl with your friends and all and then just sleep.Then you wake up the next day to queue for your line and go all crazy again.Then BOOM.you are back to reality.back to the stressful college life and all.Booooooooo.

oh and on another sad note,this is my last event in malaysia with joey.My partner in crime to fan girl over big bang concerts as she will be going to seoul to further her studies.Shall def visit her one day and the main mission for both of us is to visit Vita Dolce.=)))))

The stage -Day 1

Day 1-Moi posing before the event starts

Dj Tukutz of epik High!!!!!

G.D's towel !

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HOTNESSS

End of Day 2.posing with friend's pass.hehehee

More pics can be found on fb =)

till now,with lots of love,and madness,peace out-

The first 31 days

Hello.I am back again.I think i should make one of my new year resolution to update this blog here more frequently.I tend to confidently tell myself that I shall just compile all the awesome moments that I have and write about it all at once,but since I am getting older and short term memory loss is bad from tie to time.I tend to leave things out and only realised it  after I've posted in my blog and then I will feel lazy to re-edit it and there goes some unwritten things that I wanna put down in words.Gahhh.

How was the first 31 days of 2013 for everyone? I how it started out ok.If it wasn't well,there's still 11 months more to make it awesome!! Hahahahaha.

I started my New Year by having dilemma over none other than...................................Concerts.That's right.I think many of you know know that I am a junkie.Was contemplating on going to the Golden Disk Award (GDA) which is something like the korean ver of the grammys. I bought the rockpit zone initially,but as luck was on my side,I manage to get the Samsung Galaxy Zone and I should off my rockpit ones.

It was a first time for me to sell off my tics in black market and it was indeed a good experience.I shall reserve a whole post for my to scream,declare and just gush about GDA in another post.mmmuahahahaa.And the stress for the upcoming exams is starting to really kick in.And I don't know why but sometimes,whenever  I dont have classes I just feel like lying around and not do anything.SOMETHING WHICH I SHOULD NOT BE DOING! The after effects of it is that I will feel super guilty and a bit of an improvement this year is that,after what I had gone through last year,I know time is something you cannot turn back or wished you had done something different with it.So,I am treasuring it so so so so so so much more now.

My class schedule this year is CRAZY.thank god my exam timetable this year is the best out of my 3 years of exam T.T Let me list my class timetable:
Monday 3-6pm-Sucession , 6.30pm-9.30 pm IP class. (to make it even awesome,classes are at 2 diff building,hence,i need to rush for my second class and also my dinner )

Tues:Juris-2-4pm.
I choose to skip my wed tutorials at night,cause its a bit waste of my time.Like really,waste my time of traveling since the lecturer will email notes of it after class.So...
Thurs-Juris :2-5pm
Sat : Juris :1-4pm , Company law : 4.30-7.30pm
Sunday : Sucession :9am-12pm

So,how does one does not feel exhausted and just feel like not doing anything on their day off,I really salute them. And my revision class (which is like usually super crazy and really kills you) havent even started yet.*cries an oceannn*

But,this is my final hurdle,and I know that to achieve what I am aiming for needs a lot of sacrifice and I will try and reach my goals though I have my distractions and giving up moment from time to time.

Wishing all of my friends here and around the world (mostly in the UK) all the best in their studies or whatever they are on to now! And let us just kill it!!!

My bestie who loves to menghilang from time to time front he internet world ( the only means that I could really connect to her) gave me one of the best surprise again today! Ahhhh.she just never fails at it.Hahahahaha. Am very very happy for her and I hope that I will be able to visit her in Edin with Ms.Lee one day.Hopefully that day will be imminent. Wait for us!!! We will get there one day :DDDDD

Overall,2013 started out with a bang and i hope it will be an awesome year for me and everyone! =))

till then,lots of love,peace out-

The 366th day.

It's 12am now and it's 31st December 2012 !!! Gosh,I feel time flies exceptionally fast this time.It feels only yesterday where it was like August and wosh! it's the last day of December already.

I would have to say the first half of the year was one of the most stressful time for me.Facing my 2nd year exam was seriously no joke.Learned a lesson (a regret that happens every year.hahaha) of the need to be more hardworking (always!) The exam was so stressful that I think I lost 3 kg and only realized it after my exams and all.Why i think this is so is because I didnt exercise and what not that much.=((((( Actually the first half of the year pass by so fast that made me go,huh.all this happened this year? damn...i forgot it did.Hahahaa.

Did not go to as many concerts as I did last year.But went to a really,really AWESOME one.Yes,you guys know it without me saying it right? BIG BANG ALIVE TOUR MALAYSIA 2012!!!!!! It's a concert that I've been dreaming of  for a VERY VERY LONG TIME!!! This might not be believable but the memory of the concert scenes and all are still very much fresh in my mind.

Also,visited my dream country (whom I actually hope if I really could,to live and work there for a short period of time ) as you would have seen me blog in my previous post.

This year,it's a year where I turned 21,got a lot of surprises which I am really thankful of.It made me cry when I'm in my room at the end of the day,replaying all that have happen! I learn over the years to not only look at the outcome of something but also to realize and appreciate the effort that has been put in in order to make something a success.

It also made me realized that I have really really  crazy awesome friends whom I can't thank enough.It made me feel really blessed and even more appreciative.From the bottom of my heart,thank you so so so so so much for being there for me.And I will try to be a better friend.

I've also been obsessed with bracelets that I decided to learn how to make simple ones myself.For those who follow me in twitter/instagram (yes.I am now on instagram also!! hehehehe) would be able to see my hasil kerja XD

Music and drama wise,has never been more awesome.New discoveries of new artists and songs are just pure l.o.v.e.Finding someone who have the same love for them is super awesome ! as it is usualyl hard to find someone who does.a scene that reminds me of this is in the movie 'perks of being a wallflower' of emma watson and ezra miller.Hahahaa.I dont know why,but it just is.This year has wayyyyyy lots of awesome korean drama(Rooftop Prince,King2Hearts,The Moon Embraces the Sun,I Miss You,-just to name a few) and also big bang theory,grey's and HIMYM always never disappoint.There's also many good movies this year,be it in any language.

Overall,this year has thought me that a person is always surrounded by change.It depends on oneself on whether one would want to change,be it good or bad.It made me realize that I need to be stronger and want to constantly improve myself for the better,mentally and physically.It made me appreciate all the little things in life.It made me realize that whenever you think you got it bad,there's wayyy more worse thing happening to other people that your problem is just a dot compared to others.It made me try to not self-pity myself for it's a very sad/pathetic thing at times.To get over it and just do it if you have the ability to do it,then do it!!

All in all,to quote Paulo Coelho who tweeted this today : ''Never regret anything that made you smile in 2012'' It's up to you to interpret this quote.For me,it's not just the literal meaning of smile,it's smiling sarcastically,evilly,sadly,happily,everything that I've gone through good and bad.

It will be a dawn of another new year come 1st January 2013.May everyone have a good year ahead of you.Am looking forward to it!! Lastly,I can't finish this post without saying this.I know this may be one of the most over-used phrase this year,especially towards the end of the year but,I can't help it, I SURVIVED 2012 people!!!!!!!!!! Mmmuhahahahaahahahahaaaaa..

p/s: just realized that this is my 200th post!!!!! Gahhh.such coincidence.:DDDD

till then,see y'all next year,with lots of love,peace out-

Stay cool

''You think you're weird (?) i think i'm weird..we are all weird in our own ways. '' I feel i have weird taste in music and other things in general at times.As in,not really a lot of people i know shares the same ones with me.
These words just came to my mind the other day where I just remembered I once said this to a friend of mine where we were chatting over in MSN.I think it was like 2 years ago.Hahhahaa.

Forever on my mind.

Hello.I've been neglecting the space here,what with my very active role in twitter and minimal ones in fb.And I am on instagram now too.Hehehee.

Life is normal as usual.It's the year end break before 2013.Am a bit stressed up for this hols as I know that I need to study as much as can.For come next year,things will move on quickly.Advanced timetable is out.Exams starts way early next year.May 7th-May 29th.There a good gap between all my 4 papers.So'I'm happy with the schedule this time around.

Parents are currently in Singapore and sis will be going to Thailand tomorrow.Skipped class today as I was too lazy to travel and coming back by myself either by walking or taking the taxi.And it's only been like 2 days but I'm bored.Only now that I realised that there's a diffrence between spending time alone at home where you know there's people there with you,only that you're just locking yourself in the room and there is really NO ONE at home.You literally having the house to yourself for 3-4 days.I just feel bored.Like I have no one to talk to.

My dog has also gone for his 1 week long or so holiday.Have not seen him for over a week.Saw him and his gf nearby my taman when I went out to dinner a few days back.And he just walked past us without recognizing us till my dad called him.He just suddenly stop,and looked and us and went,ohhhh.you guys were here? and started to come towards us! I went ''hmhpphhh,how can you not recognize us' *cries*

But I'm gonna meet my friend,Joey tomorrow for lunch and Ms.Lee is coming on Sat !!! Yayyyyy.I just have this feeling like I've not talk to people for a long time.Gahhhhh.