things on the side

I ended the year and started off the new year experiencing literally a ball of emotions. Work has been crazy, boss has been bitchy and passive aggressive towards me, had a little bit of family drama and relationship as been.... interesting

I think by far I have never met such an asshole in my life. You either consciously or subconsciously has been informing the group that you are dating someone. Obviously everyone including me knows. On New Years Eve, you think it's ok to bring her to do countdown together. And at 6pm, while I was happily getting ready, you decided that it would be 'the right and respectful thing' to do to personally text me to say that your plus one is the girl you have been going out with. You guys just got together so no official labels yet. Ummm, hello, that's not rocket science to me. 

And then you had the cheek to say you hope things are cool between us that I wouldnt meStarntion anything we did/had before.. because your girlfriend is insecure about your past and you know that it's your fault. I have never felt anger that way. So basically you texted me to ensure that I'll keep my mouth shut. And then I have to be at the party facing you and your girlfriend as if nothing had ever happen.

I can be the mean bitchy girl if I want to. But that's not me. So I put on my fake smile, drink and conveniently just avoid unnecessary conversations with you that night. It's a whole new level of realization that I can play stuff cool though I probably would have killed you in my head 10 thousand times already. Thankful that I had a very good support system to get me through it. And I surprised myself by how fast I got over you. I guess you really push me to the limit and your asshole actions definitely helped me move on fast.

Fingers crossed that I would be able to close certain project smoothly. Last week was the literal experience of whatever that can go wrong for Completion, will go wrong. But nonetheless, the words that MCG told me which was told by WWK is that, that's how you learn and grow to become a good lawyer. If all things go smoothly, that's great, but you'll never learn or grow to solve situations and problems.

 So if you were to ask me how did I start off my 2019, well, with a lot of tears and stress. But it's all good.